DOSE:	50 mg	smoked	DMT	(powder / crystals)
			Tobacco
		smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT:

74 kg

Before the experience: I had researched a lot of psychedelics, haven't tried any since a few ~700mg DXM experiences when I was about 15 years old (young and dumb). I read Rick Strassman's book 'DMT: The Spirit Molecule' (excellent book!), I read many many trip reports online, watched many lectures on the subject, read many articles, watched a lot of Terence McKenna's material. I was eager to try DMT.

I've been smoking cannabis in different patterns over the last 5 years. The only 'wake and bake' period I had lasted one summer. I enjoy the plant and I like smoking it alone. I drink. I smoke cigarettes.

I extracted my DMT from Mimosa Hostilis Root Bark. I did a Straight To Base technique with sodium carbonate wash and recrystallization.

I've been into meditation for a few months. A weird chain of synchronicity lead me down a spiral of information that has changed my view on the universe. I used to be your stereotypical rationalist, reductionist, atheist pseudo-scientific type - within a month or two of epiphanies and the aforementioned chain of synchronicity I had a much more spiritual spin on reality. I also have great interest in channeled information - Bashar, Bringers Of The Dawn, etc, although I am still trying to figure out what it's nature is and what it's worth.


The Experience:

I meditated for about half an hour before the experience to get my mind ready (<- haha!). I loaded a minibong I have with a layer of ash on top of the screen, a layer of tobacco, which I packed tightly, I put 50mgs of DMT on top of that and another layer of ash on top of the DMT. There was a MINIMAL amount of water in the minibong.

I sat on my bed wondering what's to come. Took some deep breaths, waiting to feel ready (couldn't shake off a slight feeling of anxiety, it was about to be my first true psychedelic experience). Took my lighter and invoked the moment of truth. I took a deep first hit, having read how hard smoking it actually is. Held it for 10 seconds and exhaled. Something felt 'strange' in that instant, I couldn't figure out what. Took the second big rip. In that moment I realized - THIS IS NOT WHAT I EXPECTED. As I exhaled all the colors became a little brighter and everything became fuzzy and blurry. As I was exhaling all the sounds - of my breath, of my foot moving across the floor, of my lighter started to resonate - each on it's own. Then they started to resonate in combination, a symphony of resonant vibration. I was hit by a stack of bricks and fell on my bed, as I was falling intense visions hit me. Intense visions of immensely bright color and infinite nature. Fractal. Things, people, objects, all in a colorful light grid of eternity and infinity. This is not what I was expecting. Not like this. The resonant sounds had turned into strange tones. My ego was struggling to survive. It fought a good battle, but it is a battle you cannot win. A few seconds had passed since I exhaled. I felt discomfort. I was twitching in my bed, moaning. I kept saying out loud to myself 'Be calm.. be calm.. be calm..'. I forgot what was happening. I forgot where I was, I forgot WHAT I was. Struggling to make sense of what was going on I opened my eyes. I did not know which reality I belonged to. I did not know what was what, what am I. I was looking at the pillow wondering if that was me, looking at my hand wondering what the fuck is that and in what context it existed. I was seeing a vision of my face wondering if that's me.

I saw weird creatures in weird places morphing themselves, shifting.

As time passed and I regain my wits to e certain extent the fear started to leave. I remember seeing a grey alien head. It was shinny, as if it were made of polished silver. Waves of silver were pulsing from the image. It didn't have a mouth, but I sensed it was smiling at me. That reassured me. There was a sound - a buzzing which kept getting to a higher and higher pitch, until it got so intense it started forming weird tones again.

I got mad at myself for being so shit scared. I was still disoriented, but I managed to go to the first floor. Even while going down the stairs - I was ecstatic. I felt a little wobbly so I laid down on the couch and closed my eyes. I had the weird urge to make a strange sound with my voice, so I did. I lit a cigarette and put on some music - Black Sun Empire - Fever, max volume. It was amazing. I was dancing around, making absurd gestures with my hands (I never dance..)

I felt reborn.



Second Experience:

I was in my hometown, I felt more at home. I was staring at the sea from my window, the sun was shining - it was beautiful. I pulled the curtains so I wouldn't be overwhelmed by the light. I tried to meditate, but I couldn't really concentrate. I kept at it for some time.

I loaded the minibong in the same way - ash -> tightly packed tobacco -> DMT -> ash. It was about 50mg.

I took my first hit, held it. I noticed the sound resonance as I was blowing out the first hit. I took a second hit, it wasn't as thorough as is should have been. Laid down on my bed. Again, had visions and my heart and breath were racing. The visions were very weird, at one point I felt as if I was through a corridor. I tried to control my breath and at some point I managed to do it and calmed down a little. From an endless matrix of symbols poured blue-red hieroglyphs which formed a sort of circle, they were moving within the circle, making weird patterns. I had the strange feeling I had been here before. This place was somehow very familiar. It felt like home.

Again, I had visions of some weird creatures. Some of them I found disturbing and I opened my eyes.

It was less intense than my first trip, but I wasn't so scared as well.

As it faded away I felt very very refreshed and happy.

Ever since, I feel somehow lighter. More in place.

The experience lasts about 10 minutes, never bothered with specific timing.

Haven't tripped since.


I'm waiting for my next batch of Mimosa, hoping to meet the machine elves or whatever-you-want-to-call-them next time.

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 90880
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Jun 20, 2021	Views: 481
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