DOSE:

IV

Oxycodone

BODY WEIGHT:

110 lb

I am the last person you would ever think would be an IV drug user. I am married to a corporate attorney. I am a stay at home mom. I volunteer in my daughters kindergarten classroom. We belong to the country club, and I play tennis. I don’t know anyone that does drugs, nor do they know I do drugs. It would horrify them.

The first time I felt the surge of warmth shooting into my vein and spreading through my body was actually in the hospital. I was in pre-term labor during my 1st pregnancy, and unbeknownst to me, morphine is a first line of defense used to stop early contractions. I was admitted after I had gone to the doctor for my routine monthly exam. The doctor noticed as he felt my growing belly that it was tightening and releasing in a contraction, which should not be happening at 6 months. “How long has this been going on?” he asked.

“It happens all the time,” I casually replied, “Every 6 or 7 minutes for the last few days.”

With that, the panic began, and the next thing I knew, my husband was meeting me in the maternity ward. As I hastily slipped into a generic cotton gown and lay down on the uncomfortable gurney, the nurse quickly jabbed and poked a needle into the crook of my elbow.

Things were moving too quickly for me to be scared, therefore I didn’t notice when the nurse pushed 5mg of morphine into my IV line. The heat of the drug mixed with the cold of the saline drip made me stop mid sentence. “What was that?” I asked. Slight nausea preceded the wonderful euphoria that would change my life forever.

“Morphine,” The nurse said nonchalantly. I continued to receive various IV narcotics over the next few days (along with less pleasant drugs) until my baby was born 3 months prematurely. I was hooked.

I obsessed over the feeling of intravenous drugs ever since that week, and I knew I had to have it again. A few years later I eventually obtained a prescription for Roxicodone and learned how to prepare it for IV use (thanks to the internet). I waited until my daughter was at school and made sure the nanny could pick her up as well. Then I went into the bathroom where the light was the best. The first few times were a disaster. I couldn’t find a vein. I was bruised and sore. I missed shots. But after reading articles and watching videos, I learned that my needles needed to be thinner, and that I didn’t need to push in so far. Tying off would help and warm compresses would too.

Finally. Success!! There was the feeling all over again. It was sheer bliss. After I pushed the solution, I just sat in ecstasy for quite some time. The euphoria is amazing. It makes me so happy. And horny too, incidentally. My husband has no idea, but what he does know, is that my sex drive has gone through the roof. It has been almost a year now. I have managed to keep my addiction in check so far. I only get 30 pills a month which allows me to shoot up for about 2 weeks and then I take 2 weeks off. I taper off that last week, and it’s not too bad.

I know that perhaps one day it may get out of hand. But for now my trips to heaven and back are worth it.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 91403
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 38
Published: Sep 12, 2017	Views: 1,745
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