DOSE:

30 mg

oral

Amphetamines

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

135 lb

I don't know what happened to me, because I'm not the same person that I used to be. Adderall puts me in a great euphoric feeling, but once I crash I feel like shit and put myself down, only to crave more. It's like a cycle because I tell myself that I'm going to stop but never end up doing so. It's become a habit. I can't even do my homework without it, I'm not even prescribed. I usually take some adderall from this girl that sits next to me in english class, and she gives them to me whenever I ask. It's horrible. I'm dragging myself deeper and deeper and I know it, yet I do nothing to stop myself... I like it too much. It mellows me out, helps me concentrate, and I actually do my homework. Maybe I started it because of all of the social pressures of high school, and the pressure to get good grades. I went from writing bull shit essays to writing essays that topped everyone else's in my class. Maybe that's why I like it so much, or maybe I'm just giving myself a reason to keep doing it. That's addiction. I don't know what I'm going to do.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 93329
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 16
Published: Mar 28, 2018	Views: 1,281
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