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Brought Me Closer to My Son
Citation:   Rusty. "Brought Me Closer to My Son: An Experience with Methylone (exp93339)". Feb 15, 2017.

  oral Methylone (liquid)
[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
Heard about mephadrone on the TV and the new law to banning it and other cathinone based drugs, so I thought I would buy some while it was still legal, at the same time the website was selling methylone as well, both products had a profound experience on me, but it is the methylone I wish to mention here.

Heard that the drug was mild and had a calming effect on the user. As it was a Saturday afternoon and I had just got back from work the wife went out to do some shopping and this left me with my son, who to be honest even though he is my own blood I find him a bit babyish for an 11 year old and don't give him a lot of time.

The football was on and as I support a team that struggles to give me any satisfaction I could feel myself getting wound up as they let in another goal, my son asked to go out with his friends, sensing my mood no doubt. I think I shouted at him for some reason and he left, which left me on my own to think why on earth I was so wound up for, so decided it would be a good idea to take some methylone see if that would calm me down a bit.

Mixed a grams worth with a small glass of water, after about 45 minutes the effects came on, as my last normal thoughts were about my son and my poor connection with him
my last normal thoughts were about my son and my poor connection with him
. I started to see how much I really loved him and I do mean that in every letter of the word, love, it was overwhelming to me, I started to study in great clarity where I was going wrong with him and what I needed to do to put it right. I needed to talk to him but then I realised when I looked in the mirror my pupils were dilated and I didn't want him thinking his dad was a loon or something. So I sat there half watching the telly concentrating on my misgivings as a father (I have never hit my son so for that I am grateful).

I knew it was me that was the problem and not him, it was I that had to change. I write this over a year from this experience I am a much better father, even after taking this product just the once, I would like to take it again and see if I can resolve issues I have with my own father before it's to late, or rather get my dad to take it and see if it helps him, but due to the knee jerk reaction of the British government about these drugs I doubt I will ever get the chance.

Having said that I am grateful for at least saving my relationship with my son.

Exp Year: 2010ExpID: 93339
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 41
Published: Feb 15, 2017Views: 1,762
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