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Will I Ever Get Sober
Alprazolam, Alcohol - Hard & Heroin
by Nikkie D
Citation:   Nikkie D. "Will I Ever Get Sober: An Experience with Alprazolam, Alcohol - Hard & Heroin (exp93532)". Erowid.org. Aug 19, 2020. erowid.org/exp/93532

 
DOSE:
5 tablets oral Pharms - Alprazolam
    repeated oral Alcohol - Hard
    repeated   Heroin
    repeated smoked Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT: 130 lb


[Erowid Note: Interactions between opioids and other drugs can be very dangerous. By some estimates, over 95% of opioid-related deaths involve an opioid combined with at least one additional medication or drug, most commonly a sedative or depressant (alcohol, benzodiazepines, or another opioid).]

I've been using drugs since I was 16 years old. I've tried just about every drug, and possible way of getting high under the sun. It was a fun ride up untill I turned about 19. Started getting in trouble with the law for being drunk mainly.

I tried Heroin for the first time just last year. I went all out and shot up for my first time, and was on my drug of choice; xanax. I must say it was the most vibrant, orgasmic experience of my life. After that I lead on my 'normal' path, just drinkin and poppin about 17 xanax bars in one pop. I'm a very tiny girl but have always been okay. Probably looking incredibly stupid and fucked up, but always okay.

Just about a month ago I was on xanax, which makes me careless.
I was on xanax, which makes me careless.
I was around a dopehead, and agreed to shoot up, which sober..I wouldn't have. As I shot up, I had a Fentanyl patch on which I've never done. Thats the last thing I remember until I woke up at the hospital, with my family around me crying there eyes out. It broke my heart. Luckily the asshole called the ambulence once he saw me laying there lifeless, and blue.

Unfortunately I didn't learn. Just thursday, a couple friends of mine were hanging out. Took 5 bars which is nothing for me. I really wanted something to help kick em in, so we got a pint of vodka which was just drank between one friend and I. At that point, I was fucked up. I can't tell you where we ended up, or what the hell we did really. I know we ended up back to my apartment complex. In the storage unit. There's a little room with carpet and a stained couch in there. My friend amy and taylor were doing heroin. I was just sitting there, high on xanax drinking a 2nd pint to myself. I noticed they both were just nodded out, and I was bored...so I left and went home. Was on the laptop, talking to this girl I realllly like, and eating. Unfortunately, my friend amy called and told me she stole a bundle from taylor who was passed out. My dumb ass goes back. Not thinking.

Amy was pressed up against one of the storage bins, unable to keep her eyes open. I'll never forget, it was just like out of a movie. A shitty, abandoned storage unit, and a couple of junkies. Anyyway, I did one bag and was gonna keep it at that. Amy said I did it wrong, and to do another but I felt the drip. I knew I injested it perfectly fine, but I did the other bag anyway followed by another, and another. I layed the cushions from the couch on the ground so amy and I could lay together, cuz the girl taylor was sleeping (nodded) on the couch.

Last thing I remember is smoking my last cigerette. Amy said she woke up with my body against hers, and it felt cold. She looked at me and my lips and fingernails were blue, and I wasn't breathing. I was comotose. She tried shaking me and screaming my name but I wouldn't wake. She called my neighbor who is a good friend. She rushed over, and told me she looked at me and instantly said 'shes dead...' she gave me CPR, while on the phone with the paramedics. Finally she calls my mother and brother. My brother rushes in and says 'shes fucking dead! Oh my fucking god!'. They ended up working on me in the storage unit, and then took me off to the hospital were I woke. Still completely fucked up, with my mom and brother standing there. This time not broken hearted like the first, but so dissapointed. Ugh. It disturbed me so bad the first time, so I can't believe it happened a 2nd.

Xanax really will make me do anything. I need to stop taking that shit. I should feel really fuckin lucky to be alive right now. My third time may not be so lucky.

Exp Year: 2011ExpID: 93532
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 21 
Published: Aug 19, 2020Views: 1,292
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Pharms - Alprazolam (98), Alcohol - Hard (198), Heroin (27) : Combinations (3), Train Wrecks & Trip Disasters (7), Addiction & Habituation (10), Overdose (29), Health Problems (27), Small Group (2-9) (17)

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