DOSE:

1 cup

oral

Ayahuasca

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

Words, knowledge, science nor any language from this very gorgeous blue sphere of ours would come close to explaining the peace and serenity of an ayahuasca experience. This experience lingers in me like a calm ocean wave on a serene summer morning. To put this into a sentence in which you could understand; whenever I think back to this experience I could only visualize it instead of just using words to think of it, this is why it is so hard for me to put into words. But I would try my best. A very interesting book I read once said that true wisdom can not be put into words. Knowledge is obtained through words, teachers and learning, but wisdom is not taught nor explained. Instead it is something that is found from within your very own precious souls.

The ayahuasca experience I am about to tell you has changed me in so many ways. If you were to ask anyone that knows me they would tell you, I am still the same goof ball I was before but the only difference is within me. I see the world differently.

Anyways! Onto the experience! I will refer to my friend that I tripped with as 'ral.'
So if my memory serves me right, it was an autumn afternoon that I received a really random phone call from ral explaining to me that he had some ayahuasca and he wanted me to partake (*NOTE: I had already done extensive research years before on ayahuasca so I knew a lot about it). I was with my girlfriend when I received this universally fateful call and her being the most beautiful and understanding person I have met, she gave me the hallpass, ok! to go on with this adventure. So ral tells me to meet him in the park which in my opinion was the only logical place in the world to take this magical potion.

We meet up in the park and he's with some people I'm not very comfortable with but he reassures me that it would only be the two of us. Thank the universe! He read my mind. So now it is only the two of us and we are walking around the park talking nonsense like always, when he shows me this magical potion in a bottle (by all means it did not look in color terms very magical, it was more like a mud brown) and my heart starts to pound as it spoke to me giving me a warning saying, 'this is it! This is the real deal!' ral and I proceed onto going into the deeper parts of the park to drink the potion. We walk for a while still talking nonsense until we find a spot that feels right. He pours us both a perfectly even size cup. I stare at it for a while and the color of the potion makes me think of how in the world did indians and shamans find the knowledge to make this potion? This thought goes through my head as we start to down it. Once again, down is the only word I could use to describe the horrible taste going DOWN my throat. Ral was able to chug it down but it took me a while to finish it because the taste stung my taste buds! We hold back from throwing up this concoction on the spot seconds before we finish drinking it.

(Time; 00:00min) Now we play the waiting game. This liquid is now in my body working in the most mysterious ways into reaching my soul. Ral and I with this same though in mind look for a place to meditate to make time pass. We find a spot that seems ok. We sit and we relax. I remember till this day the image that went through my mind as I meditated. It was the real image of a moment in my life when I was very young (maybe 8 or 9) and I remember waking up on the bunk bed I had at the time on a beautiful winter morning. My windows where open and my bed facing it. The light cast from the morning sun onto the window curtains, with the winter breeze spilling into my room, just had this sense of universal peace to it. An incredible moment in my life that shined more peace into my young soul at the moment.

(Time; 00:50min) I open my eyes from that wonderful moment in time and start to wonder if its the ayahuasca taking affect. I look at ral and ask him if he is feeling anything and he says, 'no, but I had a very vivid thought.' We proceed to tell each other our experience. Now we decide to move from this spot onto another but now is when time its self becomes pointless. As I am walking I'am struck and literally stopped by an unexplainable beauty. The sun set like I've never seen it before I saw the art and beauty in it, the life and peace in it. At that very moment in time I said out loud to ral, 'god is the best artist ever. He blends colors perfectly!' What I saw was no hallucination and it had always been there in every waking moment of my life. What I saw was the color wheel in this sunset. To better explain it to you as an artist myself, start from yellow then work your way towards orange next comes red then purple and last but not least blue (excluding green). Thats the pattern in the color wheel.

This simple realization was what sent me off into this incredible experience I am typing. But something very unexpected happened, I'm not sure if ral was feeling the effects of ayahuasca, but he pointed out something in the distance that I didnt notice. Someone was walking towards us in the middle of this wide open field we where in. I didnt realize who it was until he was about 20 feet from me. It was my cousin. Not a big deal, I love my cousin but I remembered that we made plans to do something that night. I checked my phone and I had around 6 miss calls from him. He had the upper hand on this debate because he called me literally a few minutes before ral did and I agreed.

Anyways what I was experiencing at that moment was beyond what his mind could comprehend, so I summed up the only human words he could possibly understand and I said, 'man... I'm very fucked up.' So he sat down and said his hellos to ral (they never met before) and now I was literally stopped and couldn't walk I had to sit on the ground because besides from the sunset, and my cousin, what I was seeing was overwhelmingly beautiful. Intense open eye visuals. Colors and patterns dashing across my eyes. Kaleidoscope vision. Beauty. Peace. My body felt very light and warm (It was a chilly day). A warmth of love, the warm love a mother gives her new born child that she treasures so much. Thats how this warmth felt. Combining the stunning visuals and this loving warmth... It was bliss. I laid on the cold grass facing up looking up at the dark blue sky with my eyes wide open as the sun said its last good-byes to me with its colors. Now I'am not sure what happens around this time. My memory gets cloudy. But I just remember looking up at the sky as the yin side of the world came about. The moon was coming out. Around this long yet short period of time ral is submerged into ayahuasca. He never told me he was, I just sensed it. My cousin was rambling about some girl he met and whatnot and I just couldn't understand why? (by the way ral was fed up with him and was beginning to have a bad experience) So I summed up once again the only words in mind he could understand and said, 'if only you could feel what I'm feeling.' What was I feeling? Pure Love. Not only was I feeling but I was seeing it too and tasting it. My cousin cousin leaves. Now its just ral and I.

The following event that I'm about to tell you is what lingers in my soul like a wave. I sat in the meditative position. Taking in huge breaths, I felt eternal. Now is when words become hard to explain this. I remember aligning my chakra points with the full moon that was out. I sat there. I let the moon's rays fill my mind and soul. Completely cutting me down the middle I let go of my self and dispersed into the universe. I remember closing my eyes and seeing the universe just the way you see it on tv. I felt like I was playing with the stars and galaxies, twirling them between my fingers. The stars and galaxies where my canvas, and I had my signature on it.I told ral those same words. I saw the death and hate in this world and how part of reaching nirvana was to accept that.

Till this very day and moment I get goosebumps thinking about the palpable ESP I was picking up coming from ral. And till this very day ral has told me the same exact thoughts that crossed my mind. I decided to test this ESP out at that very moment. A dog passed by ral and I just laughed and he said, 'yup'. To test it even further I told him, 'you just had a connection with that dog?' He replied, 'yup.' I heard, felt, and tasted everything he was feeling. He was confused. I comforted him spiritually. I was able to tune my self into ral and then move along into another dimension. I saw my own death. I died before my wife. I saw her crying and the emotion was so intense that I started to cry too, and then comfort her. I saw my girlfriend laying in bed worrying about me. I saw and felt the presence of two people. One was female the other male, but there love was so perfect and serene, that together they made one. I'm not sure if that makes any sense to you but that’s what I felt. So many other events took place on that magical day, strong visuals, death, life, everything!

But what matters the most right now on or off ayahuasca is that we should love every waking day of our lives. Love in its self, in its mysterious, painful ways is an ayahuasca trip. I realized we dont really need drugs to reach inner peace. Since the day YOU and I are born into this beautiful blue sphere we call home we are in a state of peace, but it is this world that takes away our bliss. In other words, the shitty music they have on the radio, pointless tv, and daily things we do that we don't realize take our mind away from the thought of peace and love. But we have it in us to be at peace. That is what wisdom is something that is found from within your very own precious souls. Love. I am not wise I just believe in love. Love is priceless and I rather be poor, humble, and at peace of mind than a lawyer that makes millions but is stressed and cant find love in himself I don’t care if we came from Adam and eve or apes, in the end we are all the same we come from the same place We just change our paths. Everything is ONE. You are one with me right now for reading this. Whether you are a scientist or religious or noble we all die and live we are all the same.

Exp Year: 2009	ExpID: 93723
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Dec 9, 2020	Views: 917
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