DOSE:

3 bowls

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

So there I was, in a good friends room, having done plenty hallucinogens in my time ie. scid shrooms, hbw, mda etc I felt I pretty much had the whole 'tripping' thing under my thumb.

We had both tried salvia a number of times before with some pretty decent redults, not earth-shattering, but decently high.
To be honest I'd never heard the term 'breaking through' as far as I was concerned you just take something and get high , the more you take the higher you get and the harder you trip.

Earlier in the day we had just purchased some 40X extract from a local headshop and decided to give some potent extract a go, and like any smart person you never dive in the deep end before you know how to swim so we were pretty prepared, having tried fresh salvia, then 10X then 20X extract and just like smoking weed we would be high for a bit, the usual, nothing spectacular.

So, as usual I packed a bong load of the extract and proceeded to toke, holding it in for around 10 seconds then exhaling. I did this another two times feeling fairly confident. I did them one after the other without really 'coming up for air'. I wanted this though, I was not scared, I wanted to 'break through'.

Now the next part is, the only way I can formulate my experience into words, but it doesnt even scratch the surface. (note: I have experienced 'ego death' and 'becoming god' etc on acid or combinations with acid, but this was something else....)

NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING could have ever prepared me for where I was going. Without any warning I was thrust into a world where I no longer existed. I mean immediately. Instantly. ZERO warning. Its hard to explain but I was no longer myself, in fact it was like I had just started to exist, with no prior knowledge of who I was before. My world was replaced with the feeling and the image (I think?!) of giant cog like mechanisms grinding away, oblivious to my new existence, these cogs, like a big machine, were all joined together and stuck out like luminous colors in an empty realm... And they were sucking me in, it felt like evil itself, like I was born into an existence whose sole purpose was to be crushed by these cogs. They were just pulling me into them, far too strong to even resist. Its weird, I didnt know if I was alive so its hard to say if I was scared of dying. But whatever I was afraid of it was fucking terrifying! I know it sounds strange but whatever I was at the time, I knew these 'cogs' were BAD news, and more than that, I recall them laughing at me, I still get shivers 4 years later remembering the sound of them laughing. This was hell, and I was in it. Sheer terror, undiluted, and mocking me, Laughing at me!

Thats it, thats all I can remember, I went to sleep and woke up a couple of hours later feeling fine, and promising myself I'd never smoke it again, and I havent. Its hard to explain, for such a short report the experience felt like an eternity - but thats all I remember.

All I can say is I know why its still legal everywhere, because you have to have some big balls to take this shit, I'm no wimp, but I have heard of veteran trippers being put on their ass by this substance and I now know why.

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 93881
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Mar 26, 2021	Views: 560
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