If I'm Gonna Relapse.....
Citation: J. "If I'm Gonna Relapse.....: An Experience with Heroin & Cocaine (exp94739)". Erowid.org. Jun 8, 2020. erowid.org/exp/94739
I Think I should state the obvious first. That doing either of these drugs with no experience is a very bad idea, I personally smoke both, which is less dangerous than intravenous use. Still I have many years experience with both and know my limits, both with a habit, and without. The following is a report of what happened last night.
What can I say, life had become excrutiatingly boring again, and I knew just how to make it infinitely more interesting. Been out the game for a long time now, but as the saying goes, an addict could score on the moon. Had to use street level vendor, not something I was particularly happy about, but was pleasantly surprised at quality of product.
I feel the familiar tingling of anticipation as I open up the wraps. I start with the H first, always my favourite. I chase 2 bags on tin foil in quick succession, the warmth and feeling of total peace & serenity flowing gently down my back, and down into my feet. I won't ruin it with the white yet, although my mind is already starting to look forward to it.
After about 20 mins, I load up the white into a pipe. Butterflies in my stomach at full tilt now, the anticipation so strong I'm nearly sick. I compose myself and smoke a large pipe, and hold it down until my lungs feel like caving in. As I breathe out the smoke, I can almost feel the synapses in my brain recoil. I'm convinced I'm gonna have a stroke then and there, I've done too much I tell myself, should of taken it easy first time back in. My heart beats too fast, my vision is starting to go.
I grab the tin foil and take a huge lungfull of the H, and I slowly start to right myself. Guess gear hasn't got any weaker in my absence...good.
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