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Trying to Figure Out Who's in the Mirror
Cannabis
by Alex
Citation:   Alex. "Trying to Figure Out Who's in the Mirror: An Experience with Cannabis (exp9548)". Erowid.org. Jul 6, 2005. erowid.org/exp/9548

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
20 tablets oral MDMA (pill / tablet)
  T+ 48:00 6 hits smoked Cannabis (plant material)

BODY WEIGHT: 130 lb


On a summer afternoon, a day or 2 after a toil with ecstasy which had me using about 20 or so pills ( yes 20 or so pills )I decided to smoke some weed to make the stomach cramps go away because I get extreme cramps after doing a lot of ecstasy. I was also experiencing a lot of body cramps from over exertion. So anyway, I smoked the buds on my kitchen counter with a keychain mini bowl my friend got from a convenience store. it was perfect. I started feeling pretty high within the first 20 minutes but all of a sudden things got really odd and creepy. I concluded that the reason everything was getting so damn visually weird was because when you do a high dose of ecstasy, its like the minimal after effects of acid, like things are still moving around a little but its not considered tripping.

Well, once the weed started to really kick in, it was as if I took about 4 hits of good acid. I couldn't believe what was happening, I was just looking at everything melt off my field of vision. Everything was all wavy and it was like I was looking at heat wave distortion. A friend had called and asked if I wanted to go to the mall with her so I said yeah of course cuz I thought it would be cool to go to the mall tripping the balls I was definitely tripping. I went into the bathroom to mess with my hair and I looked in the mirror. wow was that the biggest mistake I ever made. I think it took me about 5 minutes to figure out who it was in the mirror. I knew it was me, but I looked so much different than usual. It was as if I never seen myself before and I was looking for the first time. I started blurting out things to myself in the mirror like wow you're fuckin ugly, do you act Italian, and wondering how anyone would ever want to look at me. I started to get really scared just looking at myself seeing every little thing that makes up my personality. I was getting visions of my true self and seeing exactly what I really was. IT SCARED ME!! I don't look at myself the same anymore!! I never went out with my friend that day because I ended up standing in my bathroom for a few hours. Unless you wanna see what you really are, don't look at yourself in the mirror!

Exp Year: 2001ExpID: 9548
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jul 6, 2005Views: 5,991
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