DOSE:

repeated

Methoxetamine

BODY WEIGHT:

105 lb

I have been using methoxetamine, off and on, since the summer of 2011. It is now the spring of 2012, and I am sitting here, waiting on another delivery.

When I have it, I use it. I use it until I don't understand my surroundings nearly once weekly. A common dose for me is 35mg with a couple of booster bumps, about 5mg each. I don't take it orally.

My care package? A sample of methoxetamine, MXE, MKet, 3-MeO-2-Oxo-PCE, et cetera. This dissociative has me hooked, somewhat, I'll admit.

It is not exactly like ketamine, for those wondering. I would imagine that ketamine users would not really enjoy it. It is better than DXM. It is almost certainly more preferable to PCP, and I've heard through the grapevine that it's more fun than 3- and 4-MeO-PCP. As for other related dissociative chemicals, I have no idea. But I don't really care, as MXE is the one for me.

At my worst on MXE, I was unable to host my own party. I gave out lines and lines and lines of MXE for free. I ended up sitting in front of everyone, shirtless, continuing a chant of, 'Whaaaat the fff---' and 'ohhhh, my Goooood.' This was -after- I had vomited.

I won't say that I don't like it. I'm just a bit afraid of where I'll go from here. I know I'll do more. I know I'll like it.

And I know that, at certain times, it will trigger panic responses that leave me crying and ashamed. This is becoming a bigger and bigger issue that makes me want to stop taking MXE. But then again, I'm always convinced that I can control these things, so I will continue, at least infrequently.

It is intriguing. I began to crave the weirdness.

Story number 2: After snorting methoxetamine, I try to smoke a bowl with my roommate. I fall into a trance involving complicated gestures and flicks of my lighter. She is quickly and understandably annoyed.

Then again, at other times, it has been wonderful. Under the influence of the combination of MXE and methadone, I have written some of the best work of my life.

But is it the MXE? Is it me? Only one way to find out.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 95812
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 27
Published: Nov 6, 2015	Views: 2,804
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