Citation: JJJ. "The Brink of the Divine and the Damned: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (Extract) (exp96306)". Erowid.org. Jun 16, 2018. erowid.org/exp/96306
To start off, i'd like to say that I had taken Salvia quite a bit before this experience, and each time got progressively more intense.
I was alone. It was around 3 PM on a summer afternoon. My room was filled with shafts of sunlight created by my blinds being partially opened. I had my laptop playing some music (White Rabbit, Jefferson Airplane- at the time of the trip). It was a perfect day and I had been relaxing to wind it down.
I decided that I would take a toke or two of the Salvia extract that I had left over from earlier in the summer. My father was downstairs and rarely came up, so I wanted to try and some it in my room.
I turned my television off, set the music up and retrieved my bowl from my top drawer. When I was loading the bowl my mind was at ease. After all, it would only last for five to ten minutes~
I lay down on my bed, bowl at my side, laptop at my other side. Picked up the bowl and took a rather large hit. When the twenty or so seconds were up- I exhaled.
The smoke appeared to spiral from my lungs into the shafts of sunlight that were all around me. Causing them to become even more visible. This is the point where I began to panic.
The reason for the panic was that the beams of light coming from my window took on a life of their own. They were no longer just particles of light, they were actually solid matter. Much like a lightsaber. I could feel them going through my body. A slicing sensation. As if I were being cut into a dozen slices of my former self.
I stood up quickly looking around my room. My laptop was still playing music, but when I looked at it- it looked different. It seemed off in a distance, and the music seemed far away as well. It began to look dull- dull only by comparison to what was happening around it. Swirls of musical note like whisps were flowing from it. All colors imaginable. It was absolutely astounding. They danced and swirled in perfect synchronicity to the song at hand~
This held my attention for -what seemed like- an eternity. But suddenly something began speaking to me. It came from the center of my room. I lay down as I looked towards it. It was a woman. A feathery goddess, is what I would describe her as appearing as. She asked me to take another hit of the bowl if I wanted to see how the wonders of everything worked.
The bowl began to have a gravity effect on me, literally pulling me towards it. As I was being pulled downwards to the bowl on the side of my bed, I began to fall through it. Half of my body was in my room and half of it was in another world. I was fighting against it as hard as I could. The wooden boards of my floor began to crack. all coming apart as if they were legos, opening up into absolute blackness. At this point I began speaking back, saying 'NO' quite a few times out loud. This seemed to not anger her, but upset her. She asked why I had summoned her if I had not wanted to learn about what she has to offer. I was extremely apologetic towards the Goddess. When I said 'I'm sorry' - the floor closed up, the pull through my bed had stopped and the music began to fill my room with beauty.
She was still there, though now very ghostly and white. She pointed me in the direction of my window. When I looked at it I saw a large, translucent, undulating (almost) chakra-like circle. Glowing greatly with tints of gold, yet very translucent. It was filled with gear-like smaller circles, spinning all together and into one another. It was sort of like an infinitely complex clock.
I can't even begin to describe the beauty of this. Since this vision, my view on life has expanded, the 'chakra' I saw caused me to realize how everything, infinitely small or infinitely large, all fits together- perfectly. Reality is a complex clockwork made up of puzzle pieces which all fit together in the only possible way that they can- in order to make the larger gears turn~
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