Citation: bodhisattva. "It's All About the Ego: An Experience with 5-MeO-DMT (exp97108)". Erowid.org. Mar 22, 2018. erowid.org/exp/97108
5-MeO-DMT First Timer Experience
So here it is. What an interesting thing indeed.
Last night I was given the opportunity to try for the first time 5-MeO-DMT. After a good few hours of intensive discussion with a good friend of mine who just moved back from the United States, we finally decided that it was time to smoke the 5-MeO. Don't get me wrong, in these hours of talk and discussion I truly questioned whether I should actually smoke it or not, having a back lying fear of the drug itself. I have done plenty of hallucinogenics, from heavy mushroom trips to some ify research chemicals, but this was a little different for me.
I always new I wouldn't have a problem if and when I would do it; I was almost certain I would have a fantastic time and really be able to take something away from it. My ego was turning me away from the opportunity to experience the experience. But after some witty redirective speeches from my friend, who acted as my emotional and spiritual guide, I finally allowed myself to calmly except the fact that I was going to smoke 5-MeO-DMT. It sounds weird, but I was simply waiting for my physical body and ego to be in a calm enough state for me to feel like I would enjoy it to the fullest. I am only getting to understand the ego now, after I have experienced the trip.
Environment: 1:00am, clear starring night sky. My open back yard, trees and flowers surrounding a wide grass lot, but it is dark. I positioned myself so I would lay down comfortably on my back after I took my hit of 5-MeO-DMT.
My friend packed up 6-7mg of 5-MeO-DMT in my water bong over a spec of weed for me, and and unknown amount in his pipe for himself. We both decided it would be best to take the trip outside in my backyard, laying down on the grass about 10 feet away from each other. It was about 1:00am, and the stars were magnificent. Before we took our hits, we both witnessed the same shooting star and my friend insisted it was a good sign.
We sat and meditated for a while. My friend lit some Sage leaves to enhance and calm our sober mental states before ingesting the 5-MeO.
I had questioned and questioned the high for many years and now I was about to discover it for myself. I gently lowered the flame to the bowl and lit the 5-MeO - but not too much....I focused on taking a great smooth hit, placed the bong down in the grass, and laid on my back...eyes closed.....
It happened within about 15 second after intake - symmetrical patterns started folding in my eyelids, and there was a pressure, a pressure that I cannot remember if it came from within my body or from an external source....it came on like a wave of energy that made me feel as if I became a part of a melting pot that is our world. I had to open my eyelids, which exposed the vivid vast night sky, and too my surprize was not as warped or changed as it looked if I was sober. But quickly, an undescribable dissolve and pixelation occured in my vision; it could also be described as the result from the vibration of every cell in my body. I lost, what felt like, my automatic function of breathing, and I did find myself going out of my way to deep breathe to try to calm my heart rate and my body.
I lost, what felt like, my automatic function of breathing, and I did find myself going out of my way to deep breathe to try to calm my heart rate and my body.
With this breathing, time literally felt to slow down. With every inhale and exhale, there was an echoeing pulse that sounded through my breathe....like the chhh chhh chh chhh.....coo coo coo coo.... It was the most magnificent/unnerving thing I have ever experienced! The transition had started...it was intense but warming. Finally the peak was over, and I felt what I would like to call...'bliss'. In the 'transition' I had no real emotion, but as I came back to my body I discovered that it was shock more than anything, but the 5-MeO-DMT was still in me. I felt my mood switch and it was like a literal 100 in sync orgasms. I smiled, but felt no need to laugh or say anything. I was still floating with the stars above me, and I swore I witnessed the earth spinning.
We laid there for a good 20 minutes, even though I really did have no concept of time whilst peaking. But even after I felt the 5-MeO wear away, I was completely at peace staring at the stars and felt no need to get up and talk about what just happened. My ego was finally on the off switch for a little bit, and it felt pretty damn great!
It's all about the ego....
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