DOSE: T+ 0:00	18 mg	oral	4-HO-DiPT
T+ 0:05	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)
T+ 0:05	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)
T+ 0:26	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)
T+ 0:32	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)
T+ 1:20	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)

BODY WEIGHT:

126 lb

July ?, 2011
Substances: 4-HO-DIPT, Cannabis
Dose: 18 mg, repeated

10:35 – 18 mg of 4-ho-dipt swallowed on a mostly empty stomach. Almost instantly feel a head change, like 'oh hi there's a chemical coming' I should ready myself. Smoke a bowl as I await effects listening to music sitting at the comp. Plan is just to see where this trip takes me, but officially I'm hoping this will kick my ass kinda, and I'll be laid out for the peak. my first trial of 15 mg with this chemical more or less lived up to whats been said about and is exactly what I'm looking for from it (for me does not exacerbate hppd to a very noticeable extent) while providing me with a great light +++ trip to dip my feet back into psychedelia.

10:45 – Mind is slowed, and it becomes harder to think complete thoughts the whole way through. Can definitely feel my mind shifting, but its still pretty vague. A very nice tryptamine body buzz accompanies the mind state nicely.

10:51 – A very euphoric energy all over my body now! Love this and I love even more looking at my ceiling without being overwhelmed with visuals on low-medium doses of psychedelics.

10:57 time dialtion. not apparent but it feels longer then it has been. Pupils dilated. Some nausea but nothing to worry about. Probably more about how I'm down into my 120's (pounds) atm.

11:01 Another bowl is thrown into the mix. I guess the trip is fully on, and I love it so much. A recreational psilocybin analogue with no over active visuals to get in the way. Mentally feel great.

11:07 Another bowl.. High is fine and feeling great I'm feeling so good, and mentally I'm tripping balls as they say. Bless this chemical.

11:12 Its really focused on the legs, but my whole body feels some sort of tryptamine high. My thoughts have been slowed and the “doors” have been open I feel, and yet its almost like no one came through, leaving me just with this beautiful body high and head space,.

11:17 Mind is spun as hell, and the lack of visuals kinda feels like a counter to 4-aco-mipts overwhelming visual activity at 14 mg replacing it instead with this crazy body high. Of course this all very biased and reliant on personal chemistry, but for me this is how I have absorbed my experiences.

11:25 Mind is almost vacant from thought all the while that beautiful body high is building. A full on +++ sans visual activity.

11:30 I feel as if I'm on the brink of something huge, yet I'm afraid today will not be its day to come. Some visuals now but its just not about that man.

11:40 Something important is realized, then forgotten, lost to the euphoria of my body and mind. Feelings of deju as if the thing to be remembered was this though all along. I outstretch my legs in anyway I can but it never satisfies them. Its ok though because there feeling this buzzed up greatness the whole time.

11:45 almost certain the stomach pain is said stomach asking for food. Much later. I think I'm peaking now? Visual activity seems to have kicked up just a bit, but just to the level of present. This wild tryptamine buzz previously mostly confined to my legs now spreads all over me in shimmering waves. Time to go outside

11:55 after smoking a bowl on my porch just to see what this trip is I came to think, and I realized a few things, but most importantly I need to add about 20 pounds back on

12:07 this drug shows me very powerfully what I fuck I am for these last 3 months on phenazepam, and that its time to get off asap. How stupid I am for once again believing my own bull shit. 126.8 pounds 8 mg a day. How the fuck did this happen. Cant eat shit and has kept me from being motivated. This is unrelentless, but it neeeds to be.

12:11 I am coming down, flooded with thoughts of relief of pleasure at the end of this peak, feeling exhausted by the (needed) attack on my ways. Its not the drugs fault by a long shot, it made that quite clear. My body buzz retracts completely away to this exhausted afterglow and I'm left in a mode of almost complete contemplation, allowing me to quite away the anger I have at my own, and the worlds, shortcomings. Theres solutions for every problem this drug presented me, though the drug is not in control of the pieces itself or anything else like that. It could only offer me a fresh persective. I only could face the reality of coming offf this benzo, gaining back 30 pounds, still joining the americorps. Of course this is hard and requires effort so I try to sabotage myself every step of the way. I must watch out for that, to learn when I need get out of my own way, and when I half to stop myself before the very beginning.

12:20 Demanded I eat an enormous bowl of Wheaties, and eat them all, forcing down the last few bites. now weigh 127.6 Good enough for a start. Still just completely spun out.

12:40 Trip cools out as I quickly return to normality, thinking about how often I go into a trip with expectations, just to come out on the other side with those expectations blown out of the water. Still Completely satisfied. Not satisfied getting in the help I had thought pursued, more like the trip just wanted and had nothing to do with my preconceived expectations and notions. Its not that the trip showed me any meaningful insights, its that I have the meaningful thoughts at all, in any context, in any moment. That Im alive to breathe this very breathe and interpret as if I was some how separated from it, when we all know that not to be the case!

12:45 A warm after glow is all that remains of this trip besides the philosophical shift in thinking, which I find has to be reintegrated a bit differently then just coming down.

12:55 Meaningful thought, which had been flowing like a well made purely of stream of thought, is now replaced with everyday lines of thinking. Still feel off, but quickly everything is being returned to the way it once was.

1:05 some positive energy lingers still, in part created by the non stop bowls I've been smoking, in part a lovely empty headed tryptamine afterglow.

1:15 very high and very happy. But that is it and this one is done.

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 97271
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 14, 2017	Views: 1,436
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