DOSE:

1 hit

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

230 lb

I want to document this series of experiments for educational purposes. I constantly wonder if I am the only person with this experience, and if so, what that could possibly mean for me.

My first experience with Salvia took place six months ago. I had known of the substance and researched it extensively before partaking, and relieved that my chances of reaching an alternate realm were as possible as anyone else. Together with my brother, I took a hit of the Salvia, packed into a mini water pipe, and waited for my mind to be blown.

Unfortunately for me, Salvia does not seem to want to reveal to me the secrets of the universe.

Instead, I was shown my own thoughts, and nothing more. I remember distinctly thinking this sentence during my trip: 'This is not what I expected it to be.'

Each word was spaced out on its own 'page', and for five (or so) minutes, I was treated to a slow motion event of my own thought. 'This' 'is' 'not' 'what' 'I' 'expected' 'it' 'to' 'be', each on its own one second page of my reality. One by one, each word was turned until the world around me faded to black. When I finally opened my eyes, my brother was beside me freaking out, telling me that he had seen Satan, and that the Universe had intersected and changed, and yet I had nothing.

Frustrated and confused, I loaded up another bowl approx. 3 hours later, once my brother had gone, and thought for sure this time I would see the gnomes, the elves, or the Goddess. Instead, once again, the words my inner voice was speaking during the trip were merely accented by the Salvia, and nothing more.

Since then I have done Salvia three more times, and each time I am treated with the same vision, and left with the same sense that I am missing something. I have never timed my experience (to see if maybe I am Blacking Out for the duration of the high and missing any possible hallucinations), but I have decided that Salvia (much like mushrooms and acid) have little to no effect on me.

Is it because I weigh 230 lbs? Should I be taking a much higher dose? Is it because I already think? Should I not expect a drug to take me anywhere my mind has already wandered?

I am not sure. But what I am sure of is that I will never stop exploring.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 97397
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Nov 12, 2019	Views: 524
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