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Is It Saving Me?
Buprenorphine / Naloxone (Suboxone)
by Santos
Citation:   Santos. "Is It Saving Me?: An Experience with Buprenorphine / Naloxone (Suboxone) (exp98302)". Erowid.org. Sep 6, 2019. erowid.org/exp/98302

 
DOSE:
8 mg sublingual Pharms - Buprenorphine (daily)
  2 mg sublingual Naloxone (daily)

BODY WEIGHT: 200 lb


Is Suboxone Saving Me?

I have been using opiates for thirteen years, mostly oxycodone. Though I haven't been able to use for the past year due to an involuntary vacation in the county jail for forging prescriptions, I know that it's only a matter of time before I pick up a regular habit again. I've already gotten percocets for a kidney stone. Since I'm on probation all may scripts have to be legal or else I could violate.

Although I've read discouraging reports of people using suboxone as a maintenance tool before a high tolerance develops, I decided that it might help me from relapsing. The doctor prescribed me 8mg 2x a day which I knew was a very high dose from my suboxone use in the past. Since my tolerance was low, I started off on 2mg 2x a day. I got the film so I cut it into pieces.

The first 4 or 5 days were not beneficial. I was slightly nauseous and had a kind've detached feeling that didn't make me care about anything. Prior to taking them I had only taken a few percocets and was taking about 8 50mg tramadol a day so there wasn't any kind of withdrawal that I had to go through, like I said, I am taking subs to prevent me from using oxycodone.
I am taking subs to prevent me from using oxycodone.


After about a week, the light went on and I started feeling happy and full of energy. I struggle with constant fatigue and suddenly realized that I didn't have to lay down and take a nap after the subs started working. There's a kind of anti-depressant effect along with the release of dopamine from the opiates which is rather pleasant. The nausea is gone and I have that motivation and energy that remains consistent throughout the day. I can also attest to the suppression of the cravings. I still have some percocets and have no desire to touch them after having taken a few and not having any effects whatsoever. I feel like a great burden has been lifted off my shoulders by not having to crave and obsess over having other opiates in my system. However I feel somewhat wary because I'm just not used to feeling happy and motivated all the time
I feel somewhat wary because I'm just not used to feeling happy and motivated all the time
and It feels like I'm cheating. I go to AA/NA and you have all these miserables who struggle with depression and unhappiness, working through it without any chemical assistance.

Hence the methadone/suboxone controversy. I just wouldn't want to stop taking Suboxone after having reached this plateau but coasting through my disabilities on auto-pilot seems a little unreal. I have a duel diagnosis of addiction and depression and Suboxone treats both which I find amazing.

For now I will accept this medicinal miracle and see where it leads me. Practically though, the subs are expensive and my insurance doesn't cover them. However when I am focused and feeling ok I can tap into money making capabilities and increase my income so I can afford to be depression/addiction free. Today, it's worth it!

Exp Year: 2012ExpID: 98302
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 42 
Published: Sep 6, 2019Views: 1,914
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Pharms - Buprenorphine (265) : Retrospective / Summary (11), Medical Use (47), Depression (15), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Not Applicable (38)

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