DOSE:	1 line	insufflated	MDMA
	repeated	oral	Alcohol - Hard

BODY WEIGHT:

76 kg

Some Things Don't Mix

Before taking MDMA, I have experimented with cannabis and salvia, both of which I very much enjoyed.

In early 2012 I was living a flat with an odd assortment of people living in it, we really did not have much to do with each other. I got to know one of the guys Mike quite well and we smoked cannabis together a bit together.

One week night Mike came to me to say that he had got some MDMA and asked whether I was interested in doing it. I was very apprehensive about taking it. Not because I was against it but because I had work the next day and when I told Mike about this, he convinced me that I would be able to sleep after a few hours. I was not convinced but he did not let up and in the end I just got pressured into it.

So we headed down the rec room downstairs and one the table Mike set up a mirror and out of a small ziplock bag he poured out a slightly lumpy white powder, which he mashed up using his credit card.

At this point I was feeling very apprehensive and anxious about this. Mike prepared a line of MDMA for me; it was about one mil wide and 3cms long.

Now I was very anxious and was unsure of myself, and I tried to take control of the situation and make Mike give me a smaller dose, which was about half the size of the original dose.

I bent down and through a straw sucked up the line, a second later I felt an intense burning in my nostril, and instinctively I tried to snort the MDMA out, complaining to Mike about it, he told me to flush my nose with water. So I ran to the bathroom and tried to snort water up my nose, the eased the sensation but only slightly.

By this time Mike had taken his dose and we both sat down on opposite couches to wait for the effects to start, I was still feeling nervous, and then after 5 minutes taking my dose I began to feel a sense of panic rising within me, I tried to rationalise with myself, telling myself that everything was all right and it was just the effect of the MDMA, but the panic continued to rise and I began to grip my chair, my breathing began become short and erratic, and I began to focus on my breathing talking deep breaths, this was effective in calming myself down.

Within about 15 minutes after taking the MDMA I began to feel a sense of overwhelming calm and slight euphoria, everything around me felt pleasant I had no worries.

Me and Mike began to chat about our lives and I felt very connected with him, I had a desire to completely open up to him, I was feeling a overwhelming sense of trust.

At this point another of my flat mates and her boyfriend at the time came down and enquired what was going on, Mike explained and offered some to them, which they both accepted.

A few minutes later we were all in intense conversation about life and relationships confiding thing of great intimacy to one another.

By this point I had lost track of all time and was feeling very content with things. My flatmate and her boyfriend pretty much jumped one another suddenly kissing passionately, they then giggling excused themselves and ran off to their room.

Mike then suggested we should have something to drink, and I ran up stairs feeling that I must impress him, from the cupboard I grabbed a bottle of Whiskey that was over 30yrs old and that I had been saving to savour with friends in a few months time, but such was my desire to impress Mike that forgot all about it and along with a bottle of vodka and half a bottle of midori I returned downstairs and we began drinking.

The alcohol tasted magical each mouthful better than the last, I was no longer in control I just drank, not worrying about the sheer amount or bothering to keep track, the feeling of euphoria began to grow, suddenly my vision began to tunnel and I had a mental blackout because the next thing that I remember was vomiting on the lawn. From there I stumbled to my room barely able to see and have a sense that I should be concerned about myself but oddly calm about it all, I do remember feeling the bed sheets that like they were cocooning me in warmth then I fell into a dreamless sleep.

Upon waking the next day I was incredibly hung over, worse than I had ever been before and had to call in sick at work, claiming I had food poisoning, I ended up taking the next 2 days off to recover.

I found that the MDMA on its own was very enjoyable, but it made me very open to suggestion and I was unable to make informed judgements about the amount of alcohol I drinking, which was probably an almost dangerous amount.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 98730
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Feb 1, 2023	Views: 292
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