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Going Through Hell
by Samantha
Citation:   Samantha. "Going Through Hell: An Experience with Heroin (exp99086)". Nov 14, 2015.



My name is samantha my first experience with heroine was when I was 19 years old. I had met a girl where I worked it was one of those places your mothers and fathers wouldn't approve their daughter working at if u catch my drift. Well I had 2 times before tried it pretty recently before my first time injecting it. Snorting it didn't do anything at all to me and I really didn't want to inject it but the girl I became friends with told me it was ok and that it wouldn't hurt at all.

To be honest my first time injecting it well she did it for me due to I was terrified of needles and didn't know what to do. She convinced me and it wasn't a pleasant experience at all. I was dizzy and sick puking every couple minutes non stop. After the first time I said I would never do it again because of the bad experience but decided hey maybe the second time will be better and of course it was. Each time after it was better and better no more throwing up or dizziness.

Before I knew it or what it was doing to me I had not even realized that 2 months had gone by of doing it every day. Then came the day my father called me out about my dilated pupils and knew I was messed up. So my friend locked me in his room for a week and I had to detox cold turkey a horrible experience. But since I didn't know much about it at all and didn't at all know about detox programs or how to start to get any kind of help for the withdrawals I just lay in bed for a week and got over it.

Well about a year and a half later I found out my fiance was cheating on me and it sent me overboard. After being clean for so long I jumped right back in to mask the pain and hurt that I was feeling from finding out the man I loved did that to me. After that next thing I know I was on a run. I ended up forgiving him and next thing u know he wanted to try it and ended up himself addicted.

So now all together it was a 2 year straight run thru hell. Recently got clean about four months ago and about 2 weeks ago started messing around again. Now the last few days I realized that when I wake up I don't feel so well so now I have to go thru the detox process all over again.

I would suggest to anyone do not try it not even once eventually you'll end up liking it and next thing you know you'll be addicted and have to go thru hell to come off of it. Especially if you don't have insurance and are trying to get into a state-run detox facility, which usually have long waits and places that prescribe suboxone. The medicine is very expensive and they try and make you stay on it for a year or more most likely which in reality you can detox yourself with it in a week by tapering off each day.

My suggestion like I said is not even once.

[Reported Dose: '2 tenths a day']

Exp Year: 2012ExpID: 99086
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 20 
Published: Nov 14, 2015Views: 2,686
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Heroin (27) : Addiction & Habituation (10), Not Applicable (38)

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