DOSE:	150 mg	oral	Pharms - Bupropion	(daily)
	60 mg	oral	Pharms - Temazepam	(capsule)
	Couple	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine	(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

I was on SSRI's, prescribed for depression, for 2 months and I decided it wasn't working. My doctor switched me to Wellbutrin (a MAOI) and Temazepam for insomnia. The first night I took four 15mg pills of Temazepam to see if they could get me high. I didn't feel much. About two weeks later, I thought it a bright idea to take four more, and then have a couple brews. I had been taking 150mg Wellbutrin daily.

About a half an hour later I started to feel very drunk. I reached for my coat to hang it up, and felt into the pockets. Inside was writhing mass of termites. I ran downstairs to tell one of my roommates that we had a termite infestation and fell down the last three steps. I got up quickly and shouted to him to come check my pocket. He told me there was nothing.

At that moment I realized that I was hallucinating. I had taken various psychedelics before, including shrooms and LSD,
But I had never experienced hallucinations so vivid. I could hear the termites crawling, see them writhing in the pocket of my coat and feel them against my skin. For all intents and purposes, they were real to me. At that moment I understood that what I was seeing and feeling wasn't real, but I couldn't physically distinguish the difference.

This occurred at 2am, and over the course of the rest of the night I had intensely realistic hallucinations. I heard footsteps going up and down the stairs and knocking at my bedroom door. I heard various people walking around in my room, and could feel the impression they made as they sat on the edge of my bed. When I opened my eyes, they were gone, but when I peeked through the sheets or watched them in the reflection of my phone screen, I could distinguish various characters (4 different males and 3 females. They would alternate turns of appearing in my room and circling my bed). At first I thought they were friendly but I slowly realized that they were after my blood. I watched them come at me with a needle when they thought I wasn't looking, and I had to turn to look at them to make them disappear so I was sure they wouldn't stick me.

All the while, spiders crawled along my skin, tickling me until they reached a certain point, where they would bite me and disappear, and I would feel a sharp stinging sensation for a few seconds. If I grabbed them off my body, I could feel my fingers crushing their little bodies, but then several more would spring up. At one point, while hiding under my sheets, a face, screaming, with its mouth wide open, pressed itself through the sheets, as if trying to bite me. I screamed aloud, and my roommate tells me that he remembers hearing me scream that whole night.

All the while, I knew these to be hallucinations. However, having taken LSD and shrooms and various other psychedelics, I had never experienced full on hallucinations such as these. There was no body high, and no sign that I was under any kind of influence. There was no way (other than logic) to tell if these feelings were real of fake. To my ears, eyes and fingers, the hallucinations checked out to be real.

The hallucinations persisted all night, and the next day my friend called up and stopped by. I told him the drugs I had taken, and he said that some of his friends would occasionally rent a hotel room and take alcohol and sleeping pills (I have no idea why). At this point most of the hallucinations were gone, except for the spiders, which would would occasionally crawl along under my clothes and bite me if I didn't try to 'squash' them. I would also see people from afar, in cars or sitting on chairs. When I would ask another person, they said there was nobody there. In particular I saw a group of five people sitting around laughing in the back of my van, people that nobody else saw. These visions persisted about 24 after I took the pills and alcohol.

At one point I was incredibly paranoid and was scared that I had made myself permanently drug-psychotic and that I would never come down. I thought that I was now schizo (I have an acquaintance who went drug-psychotic and now talks with God) and that I would never be the same as a result of my experimentation. After 36 hours, all symptoms are gone, and I am very grateful for that.

However, the research I do about stimulants like cocaine and amphetamine - which I have used rather frequently - the more
I find out about their potential to cause psychosis.

Every time that I use a stimulant, the thought 'I may never be same' occurs to me. It doesn't stop me, but some nights after an amphetamine binge, I see clouds of insects, and it reminds me that maybe stimulants are not to be trifled with...

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 99843
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Jan 2, 2020	Views: 2,330
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