Citation: Banana. "It Worked Partial Lucidity: An Experience with Calea zacatechichi (exp100532)". Erowid.org. May 29, 2016. erowid.org/exp/100532
I have been experimenting with Calea for a while now and 3 out of 5 times, I have had some form of dream on it, but last night was my first lucid dream from it! My experience is as follows.
I went to bed at 2 am and only got 3 hours of sleep before waking at 5 am. This is typical for someone who has chronic insomnia as I do. Still determined to take a break from ambien and lorazepam, I reached for a capsule of Calea instead figuring that that it couldn't hurt to try more of even though I wasn't expecting it to effectively put me back to sleep. Even after I could feel its slightly drowsy effects I must have laid in bed for another hour before finally crashing back into sleep. I began dreaming about a scenario in which I borrowed my ex-girlriend's brand new expensive car to take on some sort of unspecified business. I had not achieved lucidity at this point but do remember making note of strange things that were happening in the dream. I parked the car in a lot adjacent to a small park with commonplace children's playground equipment. I entered an office building, quickly did my “business” without any recollection of what it actually entailed and returned to the lot only to find that the car was missing. I frantically searched around the lot for it thinking that I must have just forgotten where it was parked. It had apparently been stolen. At this point a family of parents and several children began playing on the equipment in the park.
The scene was beautiful and many wild wolf-like creatures frolicking in the surrounding snow. I noticed that none of the other people seemed to be concerned by their proximity and the animals did not impose a menacing demeanor. The humans and animals seemed to have mutual respect for one another's existence. I also noticed that the children on the play equipment were able to fall or jump off from 10 ft up and escape any sort of injury. They seemed to bounce right back up even if they tumbled or flopped off.
Without any warning, my body had attempted to wake from sleep but was not fully successful. Rather, I entered that annoying place of half-sleep half-wake. The imagery from my dream ceased into complete darkness and I became aware that I was actually currently asleep. I could also now perceive my corporal form lying in bed. Although I was not terrified quite yet, I was very concerned that I would soon enter a full blown episode of sleep paralysis (not fun!) so I had a sense of urgency to complete waking myself up. I willed my limbs to move but they were heavy and very slow to respond to my commands. I recall being able to partially lift myself up out of the bed using my arms but alas, without the necessary muscle tone I collapsed back down. Giving up was tempting as it took a lot of effort to use my muscles and it seemed to not be working. As soon as I relaxed and accepted that I was unable to wake myself up, I could feel myself being sucked back into deep dream sleep. I could perceive the loss of form of my body as I drifted off further, accompanied by a heavy “buzzing” sensation. At this point it occurred to me that its likely I never actually moved at all in reality, but that I had tried and merely hallucinated my attempts at getting up out of bed.
I had entered back into a dream albeit I was now lucid.
I had entered back into a dream albeit I was now lucid.
Actually I was only partially lucid as I was fully aware I was dreaming but didnt seem to have full control over it. The rest of the dream took place in a small gray room in which I sat and wondered what I should do with my lucidity knowing that I had no true boundaries. The only thing I could think of doing was performing auto-fellatio, something that was impossible for most men in reality. In my dream I did it for prolonged periods of time with little effort! At some point I decided that I mine as well just have sex with an actual female but wasnt able to successfully conjure one up. I became disappointed by this lack of control; I was able to masturbate just fine but couldnt “force” another person to appear and have sex with me. I guess even dream females require consent to that sort of thing. I can respect that.
Many dream “scripts” that I was not in control of were still playing themselves out. My ex-girlfriend (who in reality I am still best and affectionate friends and housemates with) entered the room through a door and happily greeted me as, “magic twick!”. This was a term of endearment, supposed to be “magic trick” implying that I am a wondrous phenomenon but in the dream she pronounced it as magic “twick” in order to be cute and playful. This behavior is common of her in reality. She ran to me and jumped in my lap. We hugged. This was not sexual at all despite that I was just giving myself head and I genuinely overjoyed at having her company. As this was happening another beautiful female entered the room. She said hello, walked across the room and exited through a different door. I had begun to wonder why all of these automatic scripted things were happening yet I still didnt have full control over what I wanted to appear or do. I eventually woke up.
I looked at my clock to see that I had only been asleep for an hour despite that the dream felt much longer than that. I was somewhat reluctant to go back to sleep incase I were to enter another one of those uncomfortable hypnogagic half-asleep half-awake states. I feel back to sleep anyway without further dream occurrence.
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