DOSE:	3 g	oral	Mushrooms
	4 - 5 leaves	buccal	Salvia divinorum

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

This was my first real mushroom experience, and my first breakthrough psychedelic trip. I had my own salvia plant I had been growing for a few days although it was already of considerable size when I purchased it. So I made a quid of the largest leaves. (I had heard many great stories about this combination and could not be more excited.)

As well as several dried grams of cubensis (most likely) I prepared the sacrament in a lemon shot after 90 minutes I took the dose and waited. I had a meal saved up of wasa bread peppercinnis and a roast I had compiled into a sandwich for a total health freak. I also had something to snack on like nuts (difficult to remember).

I read the bad trip guide several times over while coming up. I lied in silent darkness waiting as terence mckenna suggests. Then I started to have the normal internal chatter although this time there was another call it dimension? To my thoughts. It felt as though terence himself was inside my mind but in a far off corner as if my mind was a great corridor. Then as the night went on I paced around hearing his voice and getting bubbly and excited when each grand quote came like I was hearing the lectures internally for the first time! Soon enough I returned to bed I had my dog come up to lay with me. I cuddled him as the come up became almost unbearable he is a large breed lab variety so I can only imagine what was going on in his mind but I pet the shit out of him and felt so wrong about all the times I had displaced the family's anger as the classic freudian example goes. I also thought of a time as a young pup he chewed up some vinyl off the floor and my father beat him right in that same room. I swore he could read my thoughts I knew he did but for however long we layed there neither of us made a sound.

After that wave of tripping subsided, to me and many of the people I have conversed with on the subject, the mushroom experience seems to come in waves. Sowly rising and subsiding many times over. I then got up and began performing tricks with my 'kendama' I flipped it many times over performing the same trick countless times for hours on end. It seemed inside my mind to give me a new epiphany with each succesful landing of the trick. Occasionally I would drop the 'ken' and become frightened as if my big bad parents would come down and chatise me but it was done mostly for self amusement. As my strongest wave of tripping came down and I stared into my LED strip lighting as it strobed and changed colors smoothly switching back and forth between the two effects beautifuly and appropriately. Looking back it is actually funny how dependent I was on the lights effect for my own state/good feelings.

But as the trip came down I grabbed the quid of 4 or 5 large leaves of my stressed salvia plant and placed them under my tongue rolling them about sublingually (I might have smoked a bit too it is hard to remember) as the salvia took effect I just remember feeling a huge spatial shift in my perception of the room it felt as though the air was gone or some vital element such as space or time had been removed but a lack of a sense of time always accompanies my shroom trips. I watched the clock while flipping again and it seemed to fly right past me. When 30 mins was up I swallowed the quid and lied back down. I dont remember coming into the wave but I do remember 'opening my eyes' and my 'vision' clearing up and revealing me, myself, as a virtual but awesome how more real than my monkey body (next breakthrough) giggity!

The plane floated effortlessly it was matter and energy simultaneously a concept I had heard of but had never previously imagined. The plane did not bend its will it simply adapted to all stimulus and challenges. Living perfectly in harmony with the world around it something no other thing has ever done I then eand there decided to live my life as that wave as the soothing feminine spiritual voice of the salvia sugested I do! I came down from the space and felt 50,000 times more alive than I do now. What a ride!! I got up and grinned like an idiot I felt like life would be so easy like the biggest cliche had been shoved down my throat and I wanted seconds! I eagerly awaited the next wave of strong breakthrough and epiphany.

What happended next was even more indescribable I asked myself/the entheogenic angels how to be happy and they laughed they said I already knew I did. I was in control as a rational independent man I was in complete monopoly of my own state at all times it is only when I rely on the outside world to fulfill my emotions that I found dismay and negativity filling my head. I also re learned the woes of the self fulfilling prophecy and how a small negative thought can cascade into a 'bad trip' in the 'real world' which is no more real than a trip and certainly vice versa!

Overall this trip was very important to me the lessons I learned were steadily more and more concreted into my life perhaps as a self confirming bias but reality is subjective anyway....

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 102978
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Jan 16, 2020	Views: 760
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