DOSE: T+ 0:00	56 g	oral	Banisteriopsis caapi	(tea)
T+ 40:00	56 g	oral	Psychotria viridis	(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

First Experience With Ayahuasca

Setting: Camping on the full moon before Easter Sunday in an isolated location out in the desert with my brother and a friend. We had brought a large eight person tent to serve as our ceremonial room. The tent had an open top with windows on all sides which made outside viewing possible. We had all brought freestanding hammocks to lie on while going through the experience. We had also each brought a bucket to purge into.

Set: I was pretty nervous because I had a pretty good idea that this was going to be a fairly intense experience. I have smoked DMT a few times which helped with getting a familiarity with the substance but I also knew that this experience would be much different and last much longer. I had also been following the Ayahauasca diet for the previous 2 days, which mainly consisted of me just eating salads and green smoothies.

Dose: A few days prior to the trip I had brewed 227 grams of Banisteropsis Caapi Cielo and 227 grams of Psychotria Viridis separately from one another. I did three washes 3 hours apart from one another and then combined the three liquids at the end to reduce each substance to about a pint worth of liquid. We separated each pint jar into fourths. This left one dose in case one of use threw up or wanted a second dose.

Our plan was to drink the vine first, and then after about 30 minutes to drink the chacruna. It was around 7:00 pm when we decided to drink the vine. All three of us had not eaten for about 6 hours prior to this. I gulped down my portion all at once. I instantly felt a change in consciousness after downing the small amount. I felt energy rushing through my body, and at the same time, a strange peace of mind. The taste of the vine wasn’t bad at all in my opinion. Almost coffee like with a strong wood like flavor. Fifteen minutes after that I could definitely tell that the vine itself was very psychedelic. Colors were a bit different and more vibrant, my whole body felt strangely good, I was receiving mild closed eye visuals, and best of all, no nausea. My friend was fighting off the purge soon after drinking the vine. He eventually succumbed to it about 20 minutes after drinking and threw up. We all went into the tent about 25 minutes after drinking the vine to get ready for the chacruna. At this point I had a feeling that this was going to be a very strong brew. My friend who had already purged was already in a full blown trip from just the vine. He claimed to see a shadow person in the female form right outside the tent. Me and my brother were definitely in another state of consciousness but not to that extent. My friend decided not to take part in the chacruna because he was already tripping pretty hard and he didn’t think it was possible for him to hold down the DMT containing brew. I agreed that he should probably just stick with the vine for this session.

It was about 7:40 when my brother and I decided to chug down the chacruna. I was very nervous at this point. Sitting there with the chacruna in my hand had the same feeling I would get right before smoking DMT. I knew I would have to muster up the courage, I knew that the material world in front of me would be replaced with something much more alien, I knew I was about to be thrusted into my own hero’s journey, and most of all, I knew it was going to be some serious work. I downed most of the cup, leaving maybe about an eighth of it. It was horrible tasting. It was gritty and very very bitter. It coated my mouth and throat with a gritty and bitter slime. I instantly felt like I was going to vomit. I tried with all my strength to hold it in but I knew it was futile. After about 30 seconds with the brew in my stomach, I ran to the other side of the room with my bucket and began to purge. I could feel the throw up coming from the depths of my being. I’ve never thrown up like this before. It was very loud and lasted a good 5 minutes. Once I was finished I was bummed that I wasted my chacruna brew. I sat cross legged with my head down for a few minutes. That’s when I started to hear the familiar DMT buzz. It sounded like something not of this world, very alien. Everything had this vibrating buzz. I felt nauseas once again and went back to my bucket. I began throwing up once again, but this time the noises coming from my purge had and amazing bass to it. The noise reminded me of the scene in the Matrix after Neo swallowed the pill and that metallic liquid was going down his throat. It was a strange bass that echoed through me.

With my head in my bucket and my eyes shut I began to see entities. The first one was a female. She reached for my face and gave me a kiss on my forehead. At this point I knew the DMT somehow absorbed into my system in that short period of time before throwing it up. With my eyes closed I was in a space of morphing geometric fractals. The color scheme was of dark indigos and reds. There were entities everywhere coming out of these geometric patterns. The entities looked like gods and goddesses. They were humanoid but looked far more advanced and alien like. They were morphing from male to female, never really staying the same. They were handing me morphing gifts that looked similar to multiple tiered birthday cakes made out of impossible geometric patterns. I heard a voice saying “Look at this! Look at this!”. As a side note, I am a big fan of Terence Mckenna and have heard his Machine Elf trip plenty of times so I’m not sure if this was coming from that or if it was independent of that.

As this was going on, I noticed in the periphery of my psyche an alien woman in what seemed to be doctor attire, writing things down on a clipboard as if she was taking notes of what was going on. She was not like the entities giving me presents, she was not morphing into anything. She looked very real. This alien woman seemed to be one of the entities I had encountered on my prior smoked DMT experience in which I was lying on a table surrounded by these high tech alien beings which seemed to be studying me. Soon after this I began to purge heavily once again. Every time before I would purge I heard a voice telling me to throw up and that it would make things better. It was difficult for me to pay attention to the visions because the peak was so intense. I was begging for it to pass, mainly because it was so uncomfortable physically and emotionally. I know there is a lot of parts I cannot remember because the intensity of the experience.

Throughout the entire experience I had these same entities reaching for me and interacting with me. Once the peak started to mellow out, the insights started to rush in. I realized the only reason this experience was so uncomfortable was because of my ego trying to not let go. My ego was dying and it was trying to trick me into thinking I was dying. It helped me understand how many negative aspects of my life were due to the fact that my ego had put up walls around me trying to protect me early on in life. It showed me that these walls have been cutting me off from the only thing in life that really has any substance which is love. I had been pushing people away as a defense mechanism. I had visions of me hugging the people close to me in my life and every time it showed that, a powerful surge of ecstatic energy would rush through my body. It deconstructed everything I thought I was and just left the loving core of which I really am. Near the end of the trip I heard footsteps coming up behind me outside the tent. At first I thought it was an animal outside the tent but I then noticed the sound was bipedal, as in two steps at a time. It freaked me out so I didn’t even look at what it was. Once we all came down my brother told me near the end of the trip he heard the footsteps and looked up to see what it was. He said he saw a shadow person in what appeared to be a suit looking at all three of us in the tent. When it noticed that he was aware of it, it walked away and disappeared. When he told me that my jaw dropped because the footsteps I heard sounded so incredibly real. The trip was over about 2 hours after drinking the chacruna.

My brother also had a life altering experience in which he met mother ayahuasca which appeared first as a tree but then morphed into an old Mexican woman and gave him many insights. She told him that this is how plants see the world and how they are able to communicate with mankind. He also contacted an alien being which told him that human life was seeded by his species. He asked if he could call it father and the being became very pleased and its face morphed into a fatherly looking face with a beard and glasses smiling with joy. It told him that it would be there for him anytime he needed him. My friend also had many insights just from the vines. It showed him all of his negative thought patterns that were causing him despair. He also said it showed him a vision of a pot leaf and showed him that many of his problems came from abusing cannabis.

This experience was very difficult but oh so worth it. There were points where I didn’t think I could handle it. The insights I got were priceless to me and I know they will stay with me for the rest of my life. I have had many psychedelic trips before this but none of them can really compare to the power of Ayahuasca. It is like there is an intelligence guiding you through it, almost as if it was a therapy session. Now I know how truly healing it can be. I also can’t get over the fact of how the DMT absorbed into my system so quickly, it doesn’t really make sense.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 105945
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Oct 25, 2020	Views: 1,631
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