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I Found the Place Where All Light Comes From
Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Cannabis
by Ricky Bobby
Citation:   Ricky Bobby. "I Found the Place Where All Light Comes From: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Cannabis (exp106270)". Erowid.org. Mar 5, 2020. erowid.org/exp/106270

T+ 0:00
  oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis
  T+ 1:15   oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis
  T+ 2:15   oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis
  T+ 2:15   smoked Cannabis


My good friend and I always have had amazing insightful intellectual conversations with one another. We will call my friend Widney for the sake of his privacy. We had experimented with other chemicals before in various combinations, mostly DXM and LSA in together. We had reality changing experiences with this combination and we decided we should score some good mushrooms some day, as we liked the idea of totally natural psychoactive compounds.

Well, that day had finally come. My other good friend, we will call him D, sold Penis Envy mushrooms when they were in season and he was notorious for having very potent mushrooms. His dad grew them, and he has been cultivating these bad boys for 20+ years. D hit me up and told me he had a pretty good stockpile. I bought the shrooms, called up Widney (he had no idea what what was about to happen that night), and told him I had a very special surprise for the both of us. He told me to head on over.

I head to his house at about 7PM. I grabbed the shrooms out of my bag, threw them on the table, (about 10 grams for $40 what a fucking deal) and Widney's eyes grew wide, I asked him, 'So.. when..and where'? He told me his parents were gone for the week and we could do them right here and right now. I love when unplanned things fall together. Its as if the universe had planned it all for us.

+1.5 hours. [T+0:00]
We both hadn't eaten in a while coincidentally, and we had previously learned that ingesting substances on an empty stomach made the experience come on faster and stronger, since the only thing in your stomach is the drugs themselves. We both ate about 2.5 grams starting off, because D had told me to be careful with them and they are deadly strong. We sat in his living room in almost complete darkness, and I put my iPod on to Shpongle. Shpongle is arguably the most beautiful and complex music I have ever heard in my life, and Widney appreciated them just as much as I did. We began talking about regular ordinary every day things, and we felt normal for a while. We were so excited to be jettisoned into another realm, as we haven't had a psychedelic experience together in the better part of a year.

+45 minutes [T+0:45]
We start to feel a little silly, giggling at ridiculous things and coming up with ludicrous situations that would probably never happen in real life. The environment we were surrounded in was perfect. We had everything we needed. I had even bought orange juice previous to my arrival, and we would sip every once in a while. The taste of the OJ was orgasmic. The couch we were slumped on was much more comfortable than usual, and we hardly ever got up. The music started to sound more clear, and I noticed I could hear lyrics and distinguish what the person was saying. When sober, I couldn't figure out what the person was saying. Our senses were heightened to say the least. Our vision was beginning to become distorted, but not to the point when we were hallucinating. I remember Widney looking over at me and saying something like '...this is just now beginning', and it really hit me that we are going to go far, far away from Earth tonight.

+30 minutes [T+1:15]
Oh man. Colors are swirling around us, the music engulfed us. The giggles I had earlier became almost manic and psychotic sounding, but I could not stop. It became so loud, and almost sounded like something from a demonic possession. I had to grab a pillow next to me just to laugh maniacally into it to muffle the sound. I was worried that maybe a neighbor might heard me and might have called the police. Widney is definitely on the same level as me, but is keeping his cool a little better than me. The laugh I was doing began to scare me, and it brought some dark thoughts and images into my trip. I had a feeling of power that I could not control, and it was not a good kind of power and this terrified me. I began to think happy thoughts and the darkness faded away. I saw beautiful purples, reds, and greens. The colors poured into my chest and into my third eye region. I felt the infinite wisdom of the entire cosmos overwhelming me with beauty and love. Widney and I managed to communicate with each other, and we both agreed to take another gram and a half or so.

Keep in mind, we did not have a scale
Keep in mind, we did not have a scale
, and we were blown out of our minds when estimating our dosages, so we easily could have taken a little more or a little less. We chewed up our fungus friends, and washed it down with a few sips of orange juice and ice cold water. We had a brief conversation about the existence of water, and how, without it, there would be nothing. When you think about this type of thing sober, it doesn't really 'hit you' like it did on this night. We were silent for a few minutes while we hydrated, the thought of the simplicity of water and all it does for life on Earth still echoing in my mind. Fucking water, amiright?

+20 mins [T+1:35]
We started to feel the other mushrooms kicking in with full force. Its amazing how potent these babies are, D was not kidding, and I'm glad he warned us about their potency. His Dad definitely knows what the fuck he doing when it comes to growing. The colors come back stronger, the music felt like it was coming from inside of me. I felt one with every atom of my being and one with every vibration I was exposed to. I could hear the Earth rotating. I had felt totally blissful, aware of everything happening everywhere in the moment, and I decided I wanted to go even further, I leaned over to Widney and I told him something along the lines of this; 'Try to become nothing'.

We closed our eyes, took long, deep breaths. Almost immediately patterns and geometric shapes of all sizes and colors were flying at me with perfect fluency and one form lead to another in a seamless fashion. I remember thinking to myself, 'This is going to change who I am forever, in more ways than I can imagine', and I braced myself for what was about to come.

+5 or 10 minutes [T+1:40 or 1:45], time is of no significance to me during this.

Trying to describe what I felt and saw is near impossible to put into words, but I will give my best effort. I definitely left my body entirely and went to what most people would compare to heaven, or paradise, what have you. I am by no means a religious or anti-religious person, and I am very open minded to everything. I was floating in an infinite space, I saw beautiful entities flying around in the distance. I decided to call them angels. The colors in the background were a peachy color, with patches changing to orange, green, black, white, yellow, and colors I swear I had never seen before in my entire life. The colors themselves were breathtaking. I saw a sphere in my peripheral vision, all the angels were coming out of it and going towards it. It was emanating pure white light and had a glowing silhouette around it. I saw symbols that looked alien to me coming out of the sphere. I felt love pouring into me and it was overwhelmingly blissful, almost orgasmic to the soul.

I remember saying out loud 'Oh my god, I have found it', as if my sub-conscience had been looking for this place. I remember thinking in a not-so-morbid way that I would be content with dying in this moment. Every question I ever had seemed to be in this place, and during all this I felt God-like. I knew everything. I had known the meaning of all existence for a brief moment, and there are no words to describe it. I felt the angels making eye contact, or something similar with me, over the vast distances in all this beauty and I felt their welcoming presence. It felt all too real, more real than 'real life' itself. I had tears of joy streaming down my face, and so did Widney. Widney was known for crying on psychedelics, even for much more mild experiences and I had always toyed with him about it. It was my turn to cry, and I didn't care. It was the first and last time I had ever had tears of joy, and it felt so right. Widney's experience was similar to mine, and he to this day has trouble describing how enlightening it all was.

+30 minutes or so. [T+2:10 or 2:15] We hadn't looked at a clock pretty much the whole night, these time-stamps are rough estimates.

Our peak began to descend, and the comedown was very comfortable and enjoyable. We tried to discuss what had just happened, what we saw/felt/learned. We stumbled over our words and struggled to comprehend the earth shattering experience that had rocked our realities. We decided to sip a little OJ and a lot of H2O. We felt like the whole thing was so powerful that every person should try mushrooms at least once in their life, and it could change the world in unimaginable ways, and this is an idea I will still stand behind years later. We decided to eat another gram, we did not want the experience to be over just yet. We wanted to learn more about ourselves and the world we live in. We ate the gram and decided to smoke a bowl or two of some fine CA medical marijuana in the garage.

+5 minutes [T+2:15 or 2:20]
The garage lights were almost too bright for my dilated pupils. But they helped bring me back to my home dimension to gather my thoughts for a few minutes. Widney and I almost said nothing while we were smoking, we were speechless and lost in thought. We had really gone to another dimension together. This was a unique experience that could never be understood by any other person but us. We started to talk about how if we told anyone what happened to us tonight, they would think we were crazy or on drugs (they wouldn't be entirely wrong, but I don't consider fungus to be a narcotic). A few hits in to smoking, we both noticed the visual effects were coming back strongly, and that we may be back in the void pretty soon. We began to think maybe eating another gram wasn't necessary, and we laughed about it in a 'fuckit'kind of attitude and went back inside.

+10 minutes [T+2:25 or 2:30]
We went back inside, drank some more fluids, and we noticed the energy in his house had changed. Something felt different than the way his house felt before we went into the garage. The energy seemed dampened, everything seemed quiet and still. Everything had stopped. We sat back down on the couch and waited. We were teeming with excitement again. Widney's cat had jump up on my lap, and I smiled. Her eyes were so big and shiny, her fur so soft to the touch. She was purring loudly and pushing her head into my body. I could feel the love I was receiving from her, and I know she could feel the love I was outputting. The cat could feel that I was in a loving and compassionate state of mind, and she took advantage of it. Eye contact with this beautiful little creature felt meaningful, and I felt as if I could communicate with simple eye contact.

+15 minutes [T+2:40 or 2:45]
Visuals were definitely strong. The walls were breathing again. The swirling colors I mentioned before were back, wrapping around Widney, his cat, and I. I had a sad feeling that I would not be seeing the angels again tonight, but I came to grips with the fact that they had revealed to me what they needed to, and that they had done their job. I was content. Widney and I both discussed the energy of the room, and how it was a little off. We are both very sensitive to vibrations/energy/auras/what ever you want to call it, even sober. I remember the cat looking around the room, following something with her eyes as if someone has physically walked into the room. Widney and I both noticed this, and our senses were heightened all over again. I asked Widney if he saw what the cat was looking at, and we both said we saw a faint black mass that resembled the shape of a small person. Widney, the cat, and I were all following this mass with our eyes in perfect synchronicity, and we were pretty alarmed by this. We were sure we were seeing a spirit, or something of the sorts. We both saw it sit down in a chair a few feet from us.

While it was sitting, the vague shadowy mass became less vague and appeared to be a little girl with long hair. We were not scared by any means, mostly intrigued. This is not the first time Widney and I had seen similar beings while on other substances (such as the DXM/LSA combination).
This is not the first time Widney and I had seen similar beings while on other substances (such as the DXM/LSA combination).
We agreed that we were not hallucinating, and it was very real and maybe the mushrooms made us more sensitive to seeing this entity. Eventually the spirit had dissipated, and we came up with the idea that maybe we brought back something from the other realm we had just visited. Or maybe beings from other planes can tap into our dimension, just as we had done so using mushrooms. It made sense at the time and the idea still sticks with me today. The last gram we ate never got us very far, but probably just extended the come down for longer enjoyment.

+1 or 2 hours [T+3:45 or 4:45]
We approached baseline, and we were pretty much sober by now. The experience still left us in ruins. I have trouble sleeping, but after a while I have some of the best sleep I've had in a while, even with the cat on my chest purring loudly.

We both felt that the universe had torn us down and built us back up, something I didn't even know I really needed until tonight. This night was magical and I learned a lot about myself, Widney, and the universe. It made me realize that I have a few internal problems that I need to work on. It brought the inside of me out in front of my face, and made seeing issues I may have had clear and tangible. I learned that we, as a human race, have infinite potential. I was totally convinced that there is life after death, both beautiful and terrifying realities can await after crossing over for good (depending on the reality one creates in 'real life').

This experience had made me stop smoking cigarettes for almost a year. I have become a lot more comfortable with the concept of the paranormal, and I am okay with visitors from other planes as long as they have good or neutral intentions. All in all, this experience was very positive and we both needed it.

Exp Year: 2013ExpID: 106270
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19 
Published: Mar 5, 2020Views: 993
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