DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 hit	oral	LSD
T+ 0:30	7 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. cubensis
T+ 2:00	2 hits	smoked	DMT

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

About 2 years ago I was trying to push the psychedelic envelope. DMT had just found me for the first and last time in my life. I had very little of it, though, and I decided that I wanted to try it while I was already tripping on mushrooms. The day before I was about to dive into this journey, a buddy of mine gave me a 125ug dose of LSD. I felt that all of the forces of the universe were conspiring together to send me a powerful message, and I decided to take all 3. I dosed the LSD first at about 3pm, then the mushrooms about half an hour later. Around 5pm I was, quite understandably, feeling quite silly.

I was with two friends, one of whom was on a small dose of mushrooms, and the other of whom was sober. I had pre-loaded a glass oil burner with 75mg of the yellow-white substance. I expected to be feeling a lot more nervous than I really was. My heart was beating fast, but I felt ready.

I smoked the DMT in 2 back-to-back hits, and within about 5 seconds the room simply melted apart. At first, there was nothing but a kaleidoscope of colors. It was impossible to know how long this lasted, but I felt as though my body was flying through the middle of a rainbow. The colors struggled to even form shapes for some time, they were simply bursting brightly all around me, like a deeply-saturated strobe light in which I was immersed. I had no sense of being an observer of the colors; no thoughts that the colors looked amazing; indeed, no thoughts at all. It was as if I had just been born, and I was delivered into a zero-gravity room of infinite size where formless colors were all that existed.

Eventually, I got the sense that I was in a space with certain dimensions that were not infinite, and the colors seemed less random, and were able to coalesce into forms, like a sea of brightly shining yellow-white-red diamonds that shifted colors with unimaginable quickness. It seemed almost as thought I were in a palace constructed out of gemstones and light.
At a certain point, I got the sense that someone else was present, and at this point I began to have sensations that vaguely resembled thoughts...they weren't in words, just mental impressions, like what a baby has when he feels safe in the presence of his mother.

The being was practically formless and seemed to be made only of light, but I nevertheless had the sensation that it was a being (in hindsight, it may have been that my brain was trying to construct an image of my friend, in whose direction I was facing out of the sensory input information it was receiving). The being seemed to radiate perfection. It had no face, but if it did, it would have been smiling at me, and I would have been smiling back.

Forms gradually became more and more clear. It seemed that the being was seated on a throne (my friend was sitting in a chair). It was communicating a message to me, which I did not understand (my friend was apparently talking to me, asking if I was okay, etc.), but that did not matter. I somehow sensed that the being was my friend. As forms became clearer, all of the landscape around him became a kaleidoscope of highly contrasted, beautifully intricate shifting geometric patterns.
I did not have the ability to think that I was in heaven, but in hindsight, I hope that is there is a heaven, it looks like that, with God seated on a throne, smiling, assuring you that he is your friend, with Creation flowing out from him in all directions.

I stared in wordless awe until gradually language started to seep back into my consciousness. It seems the first sentences I was able to form with my thoughts were simply 'Nothing is separate. Everything is connected; everything is one.'
My thoughts became more and more complex, and forms became more and more solid. They never resumed 'normal', because, of course, I was on 7 grams of mushrooms, and LSD, but they became coherent enough for me to communicate with my friends.When I finally became truly self-aware again, I was crying. Tears of joy. I told my friend something like, 'Everything is the same thing; The same thing created the illusion of separate things so it could have the chance to experience itself, love, wonder, and surprise.'

In hindsight, the experience was like mainlining the truth. I don't think what you see on DMT a 'parallel universe', or a way to lift the veil of the illusion to glimpse of what is 'actually there'. But I think it creates a mental experience that allows you to understand some the most fundamental, basic truth that there is.

It is a bit meaningless to say that 'Everything is God', or 'Everything is Energy', or 'Everything is One', because from a logical standpoint, it is the same as saying, 'Everything is everything.' If everything is LITERALLY the same thing, there is no need for other words to distinguish everything from itself.

But- abandoning the idea of things- each individual part of the universe is in some sense inseparable from each other part of the universe. The parts of the universe that were there in the big bang- in the initial moment of the universe, when the whole universe was simply a singularity- are inseparable from me. Space is simply expanding. And with the expansion of space, comes the space for Creation: Of stars, of plants, of humans, of computers, of novels... and of reddit threads.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 108124
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Nov 22, 2020	Views: 813
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