DOSE:	7 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. cubensis	(capsule)
	1 cart.	inhaled	Nitrous Oxide

BODY WEIGHT:

155 lb

I had been saving up all of my aborted mushrooms for about 6 months. For those who don't know, an abort is when a mushroom stays really tiny and never develops - and they are very potent by weight. This must have been a mix of about 6 to 8 different varieties of cubensis I had previously grown. It ended up being about 7 grams of aborted mushrooms which, as typical, I blended into a powder and downed with a few ounces of juice after soaking for about 30 minutes.

When I started coming up pretty strong maybe 30 minutes later I decided to take a bath as I do often when coming up. I grabbed a handful of whip-its and a balloon to bring in the tub with me. As the tub was filling up I noticed a very different feeling than a typical come up. I felt extremely jittery and every movement and look my vision was all jumpy and sporadic, not smooth at all. I could feel the vibrations from the tub filling up all over my body, and the sound was very high pitched and scratchy.

While the tub was still filling I filled a balloon and huffed it down. Within seconds I started hearing what sounded like dozens of rattlesnakes filling my brain, along with clicking and hissing noises. I looked up, and about a half dozen 'insect-men' crawled out of the cracks and corners of the room. They had lower bodies of scorpions, spiders, and centipedes, and torsoes of muscular men. Some of them had insect mandibles, or insect eyes, antennae, and random chunks of flesh missing with exposed exoskeleton underneath.

They circled me for a moment, studying me. Tilting their heads back and forth like a curious animal. They were making loud clicking noises, communicating with each other as to what the hell to really make of me. Like I was dumped into their realm and they were confused. They soon welcomed me and began clicking at me, attempting to communicate with me. They let me know that whatever I had done (I did not remember eating mushrooms or huffing nitrous) allowed me access to this hidden dimension. It was located between other dimensions in a place nobody knows about or has access to. I began feeling a bit disgusted at these vile creatures. Not unlike what it might feel like having tons of insects crawling over my whole body.

The room eventually faded as they began guiding me deeper into their realm. Apparently I had just been at the entryway. Soon a lone painting appeared. It was a silhouette of an epic battle involving thousands of insects and insect-men. I could not see their detail, it was kind of like a shadow, and above them was a golden-orange sunset lighting up the backdrop, shining at me causing me to only see shadows of silhouettes.

As they brought me closer and closer to this painting I saw at the upper left what appeared to be king of the insect-men, watching over the battle and commanding his troops. When I got even closer the king turned and looked right at me. His face looked exactly like mine. I felt like I was looking into a mirror. I WAS the king of the insect men.

I suddenly transported into his body. The shadows and silhouettes now became real images. I looked over my troops with satisfaction of all the destruction taking place. I was the ruler of this realm. I had been since the beginning of time, and I always will be the king of the insect-men for eternity. I was never coming back home - this was my life now.

As this realization happened I just was looking over the battlefield at my troops. This satisfaction was now accompanied by absolute disgust. It was the most vile and disgusting feeling I have ever felt, I cannot put it into words just how grotesque I felt about all of this.

Soon reality started very slowly fading in. I was now looking at the bathroom again but still overwhelmed with intense feelings of disgust. I also began feeling like I had lost my mind. My brain was now fried and I would always be suspended between these two dimensions.

After some more time I finally came back to full reality. But I felt really disturbed. The thought of huffing another balloon freaked me out. The rest of the trip was spent trying to forget what happened and just enjoy myself. I don't think I enjoyed too much of that trip as I couldn't stop thinking about it. It was like a DMT trip from hell. I don't think I will ever do nitrous again combined with a psychedelic, at least at such a high dose.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 110528
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 31
Published: Apr 23, 2020	Views: 646
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