Mushrooms - P. subaeruginosa & Amyl Nitrite
Citation: JoshB. "Close Encounters With the Others: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. subaeruginosa & Amyl Nitrite (exp111077)". Erowid.org. Oct 19, 2017. erowid.org/exp/111077
I ingested 3.5 to 4 grams of psylocibe subaeruginosa, in a dried powdered form. I boiled water, and infused the mushroom (held in a tea bag) for 15 minutes. I added ginger-and-lemon infusion, and a generous portion of lemon and honey. Knowing that the effects of tea were potent, I decied to drink the tea down straight, ingesting it on a quasi-empty stomach (I had light meal 4 hours before).
As is usually the case with all my other trips, I decided to lay in bed, at night time, next to my wife, and to focus on my inner self, and seemingly live through a progressive deterioration of the ego. This was the first time that I had taken subaeruginosa strains. Whilst there is much debate around the impact/effect of one strain vs. another, my own experience (and all others that followed), have been that of a much darker trip with this strain as opposed to cubensis. Please note that I am an experienced psychonaut, with over 100 trips of shrooms / LSD and DMT over the past 20 years.
The tea kicked in after about 20 minutes, and the come up lasted for about 45 minutes before peaking. This time, I had some uncomfortable sexual tension that I needed to release. I could feel that my trip was being hampered by it.
I decided to wake up my wife and ask her to help me out with masturbation. Whilst I had never had sexual thoughts on shrooms, let alone get an erection, I succeeded this time around. I focused on the movements and gradually started feeling the excitement rush through my veins. My eyes were shut (with eye patches) and I was wearing earplugs to shut out my senses, so my entire focus was on the continuous hand movement. She surprised me by putting my penis in her mouth (sorry for being explicit, but I thought that I would explain it all). My visions and hallucinations were running wild. They consisted in dark creatures comforting me, and crawling all over me.
My visions and hallucinations were running wild. They consisted in dark creatures comforting me, and crawling all over me.
Whilst it was scary, there was an obscure side that was particularly appealing. As I felt my ejaculation come close, I decided to take in a strong inhalation of poppers.
At the moment of ejaculation, coupled with the very strong inhalation of poppers, my concept of reality (remember that I am wearing eyepatches and earplugs) exploded into absolute oblivion, making way for visions that I had only ever experienced on DMT. I had my strongest breakthrough on shrooms, in what was an out-of-body experience. What I saw consisted in an infinite plain of outer space, made up of tetris-like pyramids (pixelised), standing and inverted, repeating themselves in a continuous pattern, until they reached what seemed like a milky way in the background. And then to the right hand side of me appeared an alien-like carbon figure; what seemed to be a humanoid shape with grasshopper head and antennas (but not quite).
It stared at me in a way that was neither welcoming nor threatening. I could sense its presence so strongly, as this was the only thing that I could feel in this void. It attempted to communicate with me, although I did not understand it, and then slowly retracted from my vision.
I slowly felt my body slowly come back to its formal shell. I had no idea how long I had been out; it could have been 10 seconds or 10 years… I had no idea. I suspected that the amyl nitrite had worn off. I was still not fully aware of where my body started and where it ended. I managed to identify my poppers bottle in my hand (I was still grabbing onto it), and taken another strong inhalation. This propelled me back into the outer realms at tremendous speed, in what was yet another DMT-like simulation (never thought that would be possible twice). As I flew through space and time, my visions became clearer and realised that I was flying parallel to an enormous figure. It was a woman, a pharaoh-like deity of some kind, and she wore what seemed to be an ancient dress, and as I reached her face (the size of a planet), it stared at me with cold timeless black eyes. Again, it was neither inviting nor threatening, although it clearly acknowledged my presence. My vision became blurry and I believe that I fainted (in real life) at that stage.
I woke up later in the night. I don’t know how long I was out, and whilst I was still tripping hard, I was no longer peaking. My visions were so real and overwhelmingly that it left me dazed and confused.
To be honest, I wanted to go back there. I wanted to see more. I wanted to reach out and to communicate with these entities. I had never had such close encounters with “Others”. I knew that I couldn’t…. or maybe that I shouldn’t. Something was telling me that this was enough, and anymore could be interpreted as trespassing.
I had to get out of bed, and change settings, in order to focus some of my attention on what had just happened! I moved into the living room, turned all lights on, and sat on the couch. The walls were melting and the wooden floor was oscillating, but nothing out of an ordinary strong hallucegenic trip. I was mentally and physically exhausted. The exhaustion felt more than the usual heavy body load created by shrooms. It felt like I had physically gone places. I calmed myself down, and decided to return to bed and let the remainder of the trip rollout. The visual distortions and colours lasted for another hour, before I fell asleep.
I woke up 10 hours later, completely exhausted and mentally drained. I have been tripping for years, and always enjoyed the felt the psylocibe afterglow. Not this time. It took me 2 days to physically recover from this experience, and another 10 days to mentally and psychologically find my grounds.
You can interpret my trip however you want, but as previously mentioned, I am 40, I am a very experienced “psychonaut”, with over 100 trips in the past 20 years, always carried out at home, either alone or with my wife, with the purpose of exploring and understanding one’s ego. This encounter was unexpected and incredible.
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