Citation: PsychEnthusiast. "The Absolute Feeling of Love: An Experience with Mushrooms (exp111145)". Erowid.org. Dec 5, 2017. erowid.org/exp/111145
It was a typical Sunday and I had been planning to hang out with my good friend who we will refer to as Sarah. I had recently received a few grams of shrooms and having not used them often I decided that before I headed over to her house I would consume 1 and a half grams of a mix of Creeper Cubensis and Thai Cubensis. A little backstory on the relationship between 'Sarah' and I: In the beginning of the year, I was sexually involved with her but not romantically, in fact the relationship between us was very toxic. Fast forward 8 months and we are now in a very healthy 'friendship' which still includes occasional making out and the like. We also are very close and both have underlying feelings for each other that we find hard to express due to our past relationship and not wanting things to turn toxic again.
Back to the story now:
T + 0:00 - I consumed .75 grams of shrooms.
T + 0:30 - I consumed .25 more grams and went for a walk with my dog. Things are noticeably brighter, more colorful, and HD.
T + 1:00 - I got picked up by Sarah and we went to Taco Bell where I was beginning to feel the full effects which didn't feel like enough so I consumed .5 more grams.
T + 1:30 - By the time we had gotten to the house I was mildly tripping. I had never consumed this many shrooms before and although it's not considered a lot, they were a particularly strong batch homegrown by a friend. I felt warm and glowy, I could see saturated colors, my mind was running from thought to thought flowing without obstruction, and everything felt dreamy.
T + 2:00 - We ended up going to her room and we got in bed and ate our T-Bell. At this point, I was definitely beginning to peak, her face would periodically turn into different living things especially if I only glanced at her or if I blinked. For example, she has brown hair and brown eyes and my shroom-mind decided this was notably similar to a lion's face and so her face morphed into a lion and back again within a matter of seconds.
T + 2:15 ish to 2:30 ish - We decided to cuddle and this was what was the most mind-blowing experience of all - everything felt amazing. It felt like what I always imagined something like MDMA would feel like, the feeling of the soft blankets and sheet and the foam mattress made my legs and arms tingle in the best way. It was so relaxing, like the feeling of taking off your socks underneath the blankets on a cold winter night underneath the warm, warm bedsheets.
T + 3:00 - At this point I am nearing the peak of the whole experience. I decided to take my sweatshirt off and Oh. My. God. Skin to skin contact felt orgasmic. just having things brush my skin in general was amazing but most of all was skin on skin contact, her warm body heating my cold hands and the feeling of it all was so warm and glowy. I kept trying to describe it to her because she has never taken shrooms before and at first, I just kept saying, 'Its so warm, and glowy, and like the best most fiery warmth and is just so all-encompassing.' After half an hour of describing it like this, it hit me: The feeling was pure love. Literally, the feeling of love was just pouring into me it warmed my soul and my mind and it felt like sitting in front of a fireplace that is filling you with golden light.
the feeling of love was just pouring into me it warmed my soul and my mind and it felt like sitting in front of a fireplace that is filling you with golden light.
Now, I started laughing when I realized this and she asked me why I was laughing and without thinking I just said 'I love you.' This was important because we both have been constantly denying our feelings for each other and here I was, blatantly saying it and not just 'I have feelings for you.' I told her I loved her and she was at first shocked but then she said it back and the already intense feeling of love and warmth and glowiness intensified three-fold.
T + 4:00 - By now I was nearing the end of the peak and we had just had our little 'moment' and I'll leave out the details but we ended up getting 'very close.' It felt like pure ecstasy like the most love any human could ever give and receive. I remember at certain points, it was like we were sending and receiving, more like exchanging, our energy through our lips and our 'lower parts.' Each movement was so fluid and felt natural like we were wild animals and it was instinct. I remember at one point, I kept smelling her perfume which was EXTREMELY reminiscent of a childhood memory of which I could not figure out exactly what it was. I kept smelling it and suddenly I experienced Synesthesia. I was physically feeling the scent of her on my chest it felt like my chest and arms were shape shifting like kind of wavy and it is very hard to explain to others who have not experienced it as it was for me to understand synesthesia before feeling this.
Another thing to mention was that while cuddling with her it became strange at one point yet comforting because the feeling of the glowiness and warmth felt motherly and nurturing. I felt wrapped up in a blanket of serenity and like nothing bad could happen. Lastly, at one point, I had a laughing fit that lasted three minutes where I just could NOT stop laughing which is apparently a commonplace shroom trip quality.
T + 5:00 - The trip effects were coming down and I went home where I met up with a friend we will refer to as Emme. We decided we wanted to go to the haunted garage that was nearby and so we dosed .25 grams each and I smoked a couple bowls while she took an edible.
T + 6:00 - We decided to walk because it was still a little light outside and the trees were beautiful (and the sunset magnificent!). The shrooms kicked in while we're in line and we start getting really messed up (in a good way!). After we finally get in, I'm pretty anxious but excited because I love thrill but hate scary things and I was very afraid of the 'bad vibes' all the halloween items were giving off. Anyways, we get going and it ends up being a BLAST! At one point, there was this thing called the VORTEX and this was basically a tunnel that is spinning around you with strobe lights while you walk down a static platform and that was just so ungodly trippy. It felt like I was genuinely going upside down yet in reality I was still standing straight up and it just felt like my head was exploding and all the lights made it that much cooler!
T + 7:00 - we exited and the shrooms and weed effects were gone and we went for another walk until it got late and we both went to bed.
In conclusion, I had one of the BEST days of my life, what a blast and so much good came out of it. I plan on definitely doing this again soon someday. These plant tools are amazing medicines and I cant wait to get my next dose!
COPYRIGHTS: All reports are copyright Erowid and you agree not to download or analyze the report data without contacting Erowid Center and receiving permission first.
Experience Reports are the writings and opinions of the individual authors who submit them.
Some of the activities described are dangerous and/or illegal and none are recommended by Erowid Center.