DOSE: T+ 0:00	6 oz	oral	Alcohol - Hard
T+ 0:00	repeated	oral	Alcohol - Hard
T+ 1:00	6 g	oral	Syrian Rue	(tea)
T+ 1:30	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis
T+ 2:00	3 g	oral	Mushrooms	(edible / food)
T+ 2:00	1 tablet	oral	MDMA
T+ 2:30	repeated	inhaled	Nitrous Oxide	(gas)

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

+ 0:00 Alcohol/ Rum ~6 oz. over 1.5 hrs.
+ 1 hr. Syrian Rue/ Tea made from ~6 gm
+ 1.5 hr Marijuana/ 1 Bowl
+ 2 hr. Mushrooms/ ~3 gm. dried in Honey
+ 2 hr. MDMA/ 1 tablet Ecstasy
+ 2.5 hr Nitrous Oxide/ 30 bulbs over the next 2 hours.

I'm a 45 year old man with a lot of experience with drugs, psychoactives in particular. I enjoy researching, seeking out new substances and experimenting. Though I experimented quite a bit in College (LSD, Mushrooms, Cocaine, Nitrous) I was for most of my life a Beer and Buds guy. I'm currently in a bit of a Renaissance of experimentation. It was just four years ago I was introduced to Ecstasy by a friend.

The day in question for me was personally a very bad day. I was in a dark place with a lot of emotional questions and problems weighing on my mind. I suspect I might be mild to moderate bi-polar, though I have always self-managed quite well through a relatively good diet, exercise and drinking. This particular tilt into darkness was a new low that I was having difficulties handling because of the seemingly unresolvable moral dilemmas it posited. I find a good binge to be a useful way of 'flipping the switch' and pulling out of a dark mood, particularly with mushrooms.

Perhaps this was my subconscious intent, I'm not sure. I awoke and knew what I was going to do but it was largely unconscious planning on my part. If I had checked in with myself I would have known that what I was going to do was potentially dangerous.

I was home and would be alone for the day. No plans to go anywhere nor see anyone.

At about 11 in the morning I started drinking Rum mixed with fruit smoothie that I had made. It is how I start most of my adventures. I find it makes for a nice body buzz with little headiness and loads my body with vitamins to begin. I usually stop drinking when the next item in line kicks in. I make a tea with about 5 grams of roughly ground Syrian Rue, ginger, lemon and honey.

Around 12 I drink the Syrian Rue tea. I always filter the tea twice to remove any sediment. I find holding my nose and quickly drinking some Rum smoothie eliminates any of the foul taste. During this time I am listening to my headphones and playing a video game that I know I can zone out on to keep my mind occupied. I find with a stomach full of smoothie I seldom get any nausea. I get a touch about 12:30, smoke a bowl of pot and it's gone.

From my research I know that what I'm going to do next could lead to a hypertensive crisis or serotonin syndrome, mixing the Rue (an MAOI) and Ecstasy. At about 1 o'clock I simultaneously take 1 tablet of MDMA and two large teaspoons of Mushroom honey. I consider myself a very stable and strong person, intellectually curious and capable person. I've had some mild unpleasant experiences, but nothing that ever pushed me to feel endangered or freaked out.

I retire from the video game and go to my computer. Another time consuming, pleasure-addict pastime - porn. I've found with some experimenting since that porn serves as a bit of a dopamine booster with Syrian Rue; Rue is the plug in the Pleasure Bathtub, instead of it all washing away down the drain instead it fills up and waves of serotonin feedback loops come over me.

About an hour later, around 2 o'clock it comes on quickly and strongly. I start tapping the Nitrous bulbs. I am soon engulfed in pleasure. The serotonin and dopamine flood my system in orgasmic fashion. I can no longer pay attention to the computer, music or anything requiring more than a fleeting momentary focus. I am writhing, running my hands over my body and moaning out loud. With Nitrous hits I reach incredible peaks that make the whole experience a lucid dream like state.

I cannot stop moving my hands over myself. It feels like the most intense orgasm, but sourceless - it is emanating from my entire body. Though it comes in waves this state last for the next 6-8 hours. My memory gets a little shady. I spend most of that time laying on the bed with the television on but unwatched. I never feel like I need to call for help, but I am on the edge. For the first time in my life that possibility is on my mind. It does feel stressful but not dangerously so. I play a lot of vigorous sports so pushing my body physically is something that it is accustomed to - for other people I can see this being very taxing and dangerous.

It begins to wind down around 2 o'clock in the morning, the waves still coming but gradually receding. My eyes are very heavy and I can only manage to open them a bit. I am physically exhausted. It has probably taken a toll on my heart. I have not gone to the bathroom during this time and that now changes. Just as I'm crashing I find myself needing to urinate every 5-10 minutes, just a little, for about an hour. When I fall asleep after three it is a very light sleep, still very much in a lucid state. And I sweated - a lot. Myself, the sheets were completely soaked. Obviously I had some serious toxicity my body was trying to get rid of. It was comfortable luckily, no chills or fever that I noticed.

Recovery took days and in some respects weeks. Never again this combination. It was unnecessarily excessive. I have found since that this same orgasmic state can be reached with just Syrian Rue, Mushrooms and NoS, and in smaller doses.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 111677
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 45
Published: May 1, 2018	Views: 1,009
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