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Getting Rid of Fears With Psilohua
Syrian Rue & Mushrooms - P. cubensis
Citation:   curious guy. "Getting Rid of Fears With Psilohua: An Experience with Syrian Rue & Mushrooms - P. cubensis (exp113324)". Erowid.org. Jul 6, 2019. erowid.org/exp/113324

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100 mg oral Syrian Rue (extract)
  T+ 0:00   smoked Cannabis  
  T+ 0:20 30 g oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis (fresh)
  T+ 0:20   smoked Cannabis  
On a sunday I harvested the first bunch of psilocybe cubensis (Golden Teacher), which I was growing in my home. I was looking forward to have my first psilohuasca experience with them and the syrian rue extract I had made some months ago.

In the last year there have been many periods when I didn't have the money to buy enough food. This was traumatic and let to chronic fears of existence which I could not get rid of, no matter how many techniques I tried. As I knew from other people's experiences it was possible to talk to the mushroom and ask for assistance, but it had never worked for me.

So my intention for this evening's trip was to try again and ask the mushroom for guidance
So my intention for this evening's trip was to try again and ask the mushroom for guidance
, regarding how I could deal with my fears.

During the day I fasted and tidied up my house, which always has a mind clearing effect on me, too. The day before I had read about a guy who offers guided psilohuasca trips. He recommended Brian Eno's album 'Thinking Music', as it was deeply relaxing. Sounded good to me, so I put it on during the day and it really brought me into a deep, relaxed state of mind from the first minute on.

At about 8pm I had finished cleaning and prepared my bed, closed my window blinds and started Brian Eno's album again. After that I took 100mg of Syrian Rue extract, smoked a little bit of weed in my purepipe and layed down to wait till the effects kicked in.

20 minutes later I felt even more relaxed and slightly happy from the harmalas. It was the right time to take the mushrooms and have another little bit of weed.

Chewing them I lay down again and waited for the effects, still listening to the music, which felt like floating down a warm river. Another 20 minutes later I felt the first gentle waves of psilocybin hitting me.

At this point I decided to ask my question: "Dear mushroom, could you please give me some advice on how I can deal with my fears as they are blocking me completely?".

Nothing happened and I thought I would try again a little later, when the effects would be stronger. I continued lying relaxed with closed eyes and listening to the music, enjoying the energy from the mushroom.

Suddenly I saw a spiral of light in front of my inner eye and, at the same time, felt that it was located at the lower end of my spine. The spiral then straightened in one quick movement and a stream of energy went through all my chakras, one after the other. I realized that the spiral was my base chakra, which had been blocked because of my fears (or I had fears because it was blocked?) and when the spiral straightened it was unblocked, making it possible for this stream of energy to raise upwards. When the energy hit my chakras, one by one, I instinctively knew the purpose of each of them. The energy hit my third eye and I could feel how its 'eyelids' where shaking. (Like when you try to look into a bright light and can't open your eyes completely.) So far I always only had felt a slight pressure when I focused on my third eye, while meditating. It was very exciting for me to get the chakras opened and explained by the mushroom. From that moment I focused on keeping this stream of energy alive and enjoyed the feeling very much. I realized, that this state of having all my chakras opened was the answer to my question.

With this in mind I focused on the overall feeling I had because I know that feelings are a powerful links or anchors to reaccess states and situations
I focused on the overall feeling I had because I know that feelings are a powerful links or anchors to reaccess states and situations
, that I had experienced in the past. So if my fears came back I would need this link to get back into the state of all chakras open. I felt great and felt the urge to hum and do some overtone singing together with the music I was still listening to. A kind of phaseshifting emerged out of the combination of the music and my singing. When I did this the CEVs reacted by opening up and getting more swirly and dancing and colorful and I could feel that the mushroom was very happy that I did this.

The whole situation felt very sacred and I remember thinking that this might be the same principle shamans were using when they sing their special melodies.

I realized that the mushroom's way to communicate was with sounds, pictures and feelings.

Since the chakra opening I had been in the evermoving and multidimensional hyperspace and with my singing room after room opened and I went through them. (I'm sorry that I don't remember what was in the rooms, so I can not describe it.) After a travelling through hyperspace for a while I asked the mushroom if it itself was the hyperspace or if it lives in hyperspace. My vision got blurry for a moment, then separated into two pictures, which then joined into one again. I couldn't get what the meaning was so I asked two more times. Each time the same reaction. After a while I thought that it maybe was plainly not possible to separate whether it was hyperspace or was living in it.

All of the described happened in a timeframe of about one and a half hour.

After that I put on the 'Dub Surfing' album from Master Margherita and enjoyed myself while integrating what I had experienced. I continued listening to music, smoking joints and enjoying the afterglow for the next few hours and then went to sleep.

As a result of this evening's experience I decided that I will use psilohuasca once a month from now on to further heal me and learn from the mushroom.

I am eternally grateful for this medicine and having such a friendly and wise ally at my side.

All of this happened about three weeks ago and I am fearless since then.

Exp Year: 2019ExpID: 113324
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 35
Published: Jul 6, 2019Views: 1,277
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Syrian Rue (45), Mushrooms - P. cubensis (66) : Alone (16), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Personal Preparation (45), Entities / Beings (37), Combinations (3)

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