Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Alprazolam
Citation: goon. "Enjoyably Overwhelmed: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Alprazolam (exp113761)". Erowid.org. Nov 23, 2019. erowid.org/exp/113761
I had managed to secure 6gs of golden capped mushrooms (Psilocybe Cubensis) which I was looking forward to taking with one of my closest friends, K. I planned to stay the night at her house.
K and I dosed at 8:25PM. We split the 6gs and chewed up our doses and played with slime while we waited for the comeup. I started noticing after around 20-25 minutes that the slime was overwhelmingly beautiful and so sparkly!! From there I became giggly and felt a little little disoriented, but I was able to converse with my friend. We talked about the evolution of DNA from RNA and the possibility of silicon and hydrogen based lifeforms which I found particularly interesting.
Slowly I noticed changes in mental state, really everything was just a little bit wavey but most distortions were mental rather than visual. I noticed a few changes in the way I perceived size: for example my friend looked as if she towered over me (same thing with her desk even though I was level with both of them). This a fleeting sensation of shrinking lasted maybe 15-20 minutes overall.
Soon I found it felt pleasant to lie down and look up at the ceiling. Subtle fractals started to appear as I stared up and I noticed a few oxidized copper embellishments on her ceiling fan that I hadnt really thought about before. The swirling pattern made me imagine the flowing hair of a south american tribesman, and it appeared like his face was frozen in a grin (kinda like guy fawkes from anonymous).
Around 11 PM is when the strongest effects took place. I found it too difficult to continue on with conversation and lied down on the corner of my friends bed in fetal position. When I closed my eyes the fractals became more prominent and I recall seeing a stitched yarn pattern in my vision. I fell into a trancelike state between sleep and wake and I snapped up several times with an intense urge to vomit. My friend K was on her phone and I repetitively sat up and fell down. In this fever-like haze I started to see faces everywhere when I opened my eyes, faces in the writing on the cosmetic bottles on my friends counter and faces in the clothes hung beyond her open closet doors. I forced myself to walk myself to the bathroom and I shoved my head into the toilet bowl with hopes of getting the psilocybin out of my system. I was there in the bathroom but I wasn't really there, for my vision didn't really register/ set in. I kept seeing shadows in my peripheral sight
I kept seeing shadows in my peripheral sight
which freaked me out a little too much. My attempt at vomiting was unsuccessful so I headed back into K’s room to take half a bar of emergency xanax to kill the trip. I swallowed it down with some room temperature orange juice and lied down with my hands over my head once more. K took notice of my nausea and got me some pepto bismol which I choked down. She seemed to be having a relatively calm trip at the moment, but in a few hours the tables turned. As the xanax kicked in, I felt more composed so I turned to K to watch her play around with clothes in her closet.
She took the other half of my bar and both decided to try to get some sleep, for I was coming down and I was feeling a little more attached to reality. I layed down on the floor and we fell asleep.
I woke up at 4 to the sound of K thrashing around and grunting in her bed. I woke her up to try to snap her out of it but she sat up with her eyes glazed over repeating “I dont know whats happening” and “I’m so scared” every few seconds. I explained to her multiple times that we had just taken a few grams of mushrooms and that she fell asleep but that everything was fine and that she will feel normal soon. This offered her no reassurance for it seemed like she wasn't even able to process what I was saying. I turned on the light and offered her a bottle of water which she rejected. After 30 mins or so she fell back asleep so I lied down and tried to sleep as well.
This time I woke up at 6 to a dim sunrise from the window, I felt overwhelmingly exhausted but mostly sober. After attempting to shake K awake with no success I called up my dad to take me home because I knew K was in no position to be driving when she woke up.
In retrospect, I dont think there's any way to objectively classify this trip as good or bad. I feel a slightly positive after glow currently while writing this. I definitely experienced a good amount of negative emotions and discomfort especially during the peak of my experience, but the come up was for the most part positive. I don't think I will be doing any substantial doses of psychedelics anytime soon because this trip was a little bit intense, but I might try microdosing shrooms a few weeks down the road.
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