DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 glass	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine
T+ 1:00	1.7 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. cubensis	(dried)

BODY WEIGHT:

155 lb

I decided to take some psychedelic mushrooms around 5pm before a party that was meant to start at 8pm. I knew I would be cutting the timing close but did it anyway. My previous trip took around 4 hours, but I was hoping the smaller dose I planned on taking would lend the comedown to be less intense. My brain is still recovering from MDMA taken about a week prior and I was not feeling 100%. I felt a little nauseous before hand, I had drank a glass of Prosecco around an hour before the mushrooms.

I ate an entire stem of dried Penis Envy, around 0.8g and then split a head into 2 seeing that it was 1.4g in total. I attempted to eat half of this head but throw most of it up as the taste was awful. I then decided to take the other half as well and got it down using some water.

It took about 45 minutes for the effects to start kicking in, I was watching football at the time and went to lie down in bed with some music. The basslines coursed through my body like waves onto a beach, each beat in the song raised the intensity of everything. Breathing became a very manual and very challenging task, if I forgot to initiate the breath, I feel it never would have come. It would have been nice to not have to breathe in this moment. The music continued to be very enjoyable until about 6:30, when I decided I wanted the music, but not from headphones.

I moved into my living room where I plugged in my much larger speaker and continued the same song (something by Bob Moses at the time). The speaker has lights on it, which would have been nice if not for the strobe lights which are too jarring. At this time (6:45) I start to feel more nausea and stand outside my balcony to calm down. This helps, and I go back inside but leave the door and window open for fresh air. How loud the music is is impossible for me to tell, it envelops all sense of sound and dominates my body’s feelings. I move closer to the speaker until I’m sitting with my back to it to block out the lights. My blue carpet in front me turns into a sea, reacting as I prod it with my suddenly distant feeling hand. I spend maybe 10 minutes here until the nausea kicks in and I end up over my sink heaving, but I did not throw up. All the while I have to keep reminding myself that it’s ok to be late to the party, as this was causing me some anxiety.

I decide to sit back down on the couch and turn off all the lights, as well as close the door and window as I felt very cold. I drape a blanket over me and lean back into the couch. Slowly my senses fade away. When I close my eyes I do not see black, my entire sense of vision is simply gone. The idea of sight is very foreign to me. I concentrate on my breathing to reduce my nausea and this helps. Every breath becomes a monumental effort in of itself, and each breath was lost to time after it happens. The concept of time fades away, each breath its own moment in time. I remain in this deeply meditative state for maybe 10 minutes, yet it felt as if it was years, or a single blink.

Awakening from this state was like coming from a deep slumber. As my mind unfurls it feels like peeling back the layers on a great cocoon, reintegrating my senses to this unchanged world. My mind and its ability to form thoughts felt virgin, as if it had shedded an exoskeleton. My conscious self rose back into my body, I turned on the lights from my phone and as they grew in brightness, so did my connection to the world. This had lasted around 15 minutes.

I feel tremendously calm, my entire system had restarted and come back anew. I begin to describe the deeply meditative experience to my girlfriend over text and subsequently decide to write an entire report. I sit still on the couch aware of my senses until about 7:45 when I begin to type on my laptop. Mild visuals are still happening, my laptops keyboard feels angled and tilted, the letters on the screen have a depth and grow and shrink in size as I type. It is very easy to express emotion in this state. I takes be about 15 minutes to describe the majority of the experience, and around 8:15 I decide that I am ready to get up and go to the party.

Exp Year: 2023	ExpID: 117642
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Apr 14, 2025	Views: 14
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