DOSE:

2 g

oral

Mushrooms - P. cubensis

(dried)

BODY WEIGHT:

155 lb

Dose: 2g dry golden teachers, 600mg caffeine.
Drug Experience: All kinds of stuff. I have had a lot of drugs offered to me and almost never say no. Most relevant, LSD, Weed, and high dose mushrooms (highest being 15 grams dry)
Set: Truly horrid, I had just got off a difficult work shift and was dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety just being sober.


[Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]

I left work at 9 p.m. feeling very anxious and depressed. I had 2 grams of shrooms in my car and decided that I might as well take them because I did not have work in the morning or any other responsibilities. I had initially planned to just chill in my parked car for the experience but very quickly, before the shrooms had even taken effect, decided that I should drive home and walk along the river near my house instead. I did make it home and I would love to share all of what happened during my trip but it would simply be too difficult for me. Instead I will just share some highlights and then insights I reached.

Walking to the river in the early stages of the trip was horrid. The environment was fighting me and one external stimulus would send me down some terribly disordered train of thought. It was only by putting my attention solely on the voice in my head that spoke the loudest, the one of calm reason, that I was able to avoid going down a path I knew would lead to a bad trip.

When I made it to the river I was having a great time. I was able to experience completely novel sensations just by thinking about it. I can’t explain the process because it was some odd mixture of being just as innate as moving your pinky and just as learned as solving differential equations. I was thinking about how it was a shame humans weren't always in this state. I was able to experience all sensations of the world without any kind of perceptual filter, and was able to change very core beliefs about how I understood the world and myself on a whim. This did not last.

Eventually I arrived at a part of the trail that had very little light and also cut through a very large homeless encampment. The abrupt change in the environment caused me physical and emotional pain. I wanted to turn back and just go back the other way but became worried that people would see me wandering around aimlessly and get the police involved (this happened on a previous extreme high dose trip and was not a very good time) so instead of turning around I committed to walking down the scary path and just having a bad time for awhile. This is when things started to get very wild. Can’t really describe it well but I had to face several traumas from my past while battling the fact that the ground had become alive and every time I took a step it felt as if I was killing a small animal. These small animals did cry out in pain and at the moment of their death I also became them.

I was pretty distressed by the whole animal killing step thing but knew it was just a hallucination from the drug so I felt that it was the right choice to not worry about that much because I was getting really good work done internally with my traumas. After a while I started to get this strong feeling that I was being followed, I would look behind myself constantly just to see nothing was there but the feeling was very creepy and the environment was quickly becoming terrifying. My gut reaction to this was strong panic and feeling that I should hide in the shrubbery somewhere.

I began to roam around, probably looking like a paranoid tweaker desperately looking for a space to hide from whatever was following me. I eventually saw a place that looked just fantastic but when I got up close to it I realized that there were 3 homeless men sleeping on camp beds in that same spot. I didn’t want to disturb sleeping people with my state so I just went home instead. On my way home 4 people tried to speak with me but I felt I was in no state to speak with strangers so just kept on walking ignoring them. I wondered why people felt the need to try and engage with some random guy at 11:34 at night, then thought “actually what time is it?” so I pulled my phone out to check and it said 11:36. I remember being very impressed that I was so accurate with the time because the last time I checked was when I clocked out at 9. Also the phone felt very evil. Well not evil I guess but it had a certain energy about it that I felt I could not handle at the moment or even in my sober state. It felt alien, frantic and loud.

When I got home I just chilled in my bed. I was being conscious about not making too much noise as I still live with my parents and little brother who are all not very accepting of drug use and asleep. At some point during this time a being from within me took control of my body and started performing movement and spatial magic. It let me know that he was a part of me, just one that isn’t usually the driver and that he would be giving control back but before he did felt like he needed to perform these actions. In general this feeling of possession was very interesting to me, I was still able to influence my physical actions to some degree but this other me had more control. He would do a move and either something would ease physically in me or some new mental sensation would emerge. It felt very good, if a little confusing.

I came to the conclusion that there was no grand truth or at least not one I was capable of understanding and that any belief was just as good as any other, so I might as well just not think too hard and just go about my life. I now feel strongly that everything will just work out fine for me and I should just live my life much more chill than I am now. I was taking everything too seriously.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 118792
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Apr 29, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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