DOSE:	3.5 g	oral	Mushrooms
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

I was alone for the weekend and decided to take on a bit of a higher dose mushroom experience while my best friend/ roommate was out of town. The last psychedelic experience I had being roughly a year prior, I was excited but nervous as usual. I had come to learn how to navigate psychedelics (mushrooms in particular) through surrender, but of course in my eyes part of that is accepting that you don’t know if there are new areas or circumstances that will make it harder to get there.

I ate the mushrooms after soaking them in lemon juice for 30 min or so, and sat down outside on the balcony. It was quite low to the ground, underneath very tall old trees. The weather was nice in early afternoon. I smoked a joint while I began to feel the effects pretty quickly.

I had mild visuals that grew until I just remember feeling I had entered a different place, and was too disconnected from the real world to remain “socially functional” while outside lol. I knew I had to go inside to decrease my anxiety about neighbors seeing me loosing my bearings.

The next thing I remember is being inside lying on the ground, my head propped up against the glass sliding door. I was seeing intense visuals that I didn’t recognize from previous trips. Then as if a light was turned on, I saw several beings, about 12 standing in a circle all around me. They appeared as large human outlines, which I could identify as male and female.

Male and female were the forms they took on for whatever reason. I had learned in a previous experience that my soul has no sex/ gender but I think they wanted to appear like family to me, that’s just my own belief.

Seeing them made me really uncomfortable. I believed in some sort of spiritual source, but the idea of a “soul family” which is what I immediately knew them to be, didn’t lineup with my belief system at that time. Honestly I found it kind of cringe? The part of me that didn’t want it to be true did not want to accept defeat. I immediately began saying “I don’t believe in this.” I looked away, closed my eyes but they stayed completely fixed in the same positions in my vision. It felt similar to what I experience on DMT, where I close my eyes and the entity remains in the same position.

They simply smiled, though I couldn’t see their smiles or faces. I could feel it. They said “we don’t care!” In response to me declaring I don’t believe in them, telepathically, and in the most kind understanding way. Like they were totally accepting if I didn’t want to talk or acknowledge them, but they were going to stay by me either way.

I was caught off gaurd by their love and warmth. I could feel it so strongly, it felt like nothing I had experienced before. Complete acceptance and understanding. I faced them and must have accepted them in some form because of what happened next.

I remember seeing unusual growing colors inside my eyes. I started to feel like I was inside myself? That’s the only way I can describe it— like in my stomach or pressed up against the inside of my body. I felt huge intense waves of laughter that morphed into deep guttural cries of grief I didn’t know I had in me, and back to laughter again, over and over in a timeless daze. I couldn’t tell you how many times. While this happened the colors in my vision grew and morphed, like a visual depiction of my emotions.

I understood I was experiencing deep emotions that I had either repressed or that needed to be felt, both. Suddenly I was up on the ceiling looking down at my body on the ground. I can still see that image today, the angle and my little body going on a rollercoaster of emotions and colors, and strange bodily sensations.

When I was out of my body I could see these beings depicting “working” on my insides. Then I was put back into my body again and with this understanding and my experience felt a bit clearer. It felt like I was the man on the table in the operation game and they were the ones pulling things out — nothing tangible to look at, but it was the sensation of something being pulled from my physical body, often my stomach.

As they pulled these “somethings” out I would remember a time in my life where I had been wounded by another’s actions, most were completely unintentional on the others part. Every one I had forgotten, and had no idea how deeply it affected me, shocked to understand it had been stuck in my body for however long. We would both laugh together out of surprise, I remember saying out loud multiple times “What was that doing in there?!” They cleaned me out with no judgement, but didn’t take everything. I think there were specific things they wanted to clear for me to help me with my purpose and to demonstrate how I had allowed others perceptions to dictate my understanding of my place in the world and my decisions. (in retrospect— I did not understand this at the time) All of this they showed me in the most loving way, it was a love so perfect I don’t think even a parent is capable of loving their child in this way.

All cleaned out, I looked around at these beings and understood that in order to be sitting here with them I had to have gone through that “cleaning” process. Many beliefs needed to be cleared out from these experiences I had allowed to be stored unknowingly in my physical body, preventing me from reaching the frequency with them. In this moment I couldn’t tell you if this is something I remembered there on my own or if they explained it to me, I just knew.

All of the communication was telepathic but very visual. They used their hands and created images to demonstrate what they intended to help me understand. They could also preemptively respond to my thoughts which was amazing they were preemptively responding to what I was going to ask, while I was still formulating the question. It was very time efficient though it felt a little bit vulnerable at first.

After this I started vibing with them immediately. That’s the only way I can describe it. It was like being reunited with best friends and family I had never met before who understood me more than any person I’ve ever met in my actual life! I could say anything, completely be myself, and I have a potty mouth! They would sometimes evoke phrases I use with vulgarity like they were trying to communicate back to me through my own understanding, always with infinite love though. I was even listening to some kind of like dark electronic sexy music and they were vibing with it, dancing. It was kind of hilarious we were just laughing and dancing together, I immediately fell in love with them and felt like a sigh where I no longer had to explain myself to them like I do to everyone else in my life, they automatically understood where I was coming from, no explanation needed. That didn’t mean they agreed with me, most of it was them challenging my thoughts, and asking me to go deeper with my question to find my own answer. It was amazing.

I understood that we shared the same creed. I understood that we were part of a team trying to bring a certain message to earth and we had a certain value system we were going by, and that there were also other groups with different creeds and goals for Earth. But none of these beings actually existed here on earth with me, they were on a different plane and I was their little champion! lol. All of the stuff that I did not believe in, and honestly if someone told me I would think they were just having delusions of grandeur before this experience!

This is when they began to start explaining more of how the universe works, and trying to help me understand my life’s purpose, without really giving me anything super direct so as to not “spoil” my life. They showed me how every moment of my life had been perfect for where I am. I don’t know why this is or how to explain it because there’s simultaneously different choices available to us at any given moment that can put us on a different path, but for whatever reason I understood so deeply that every moment had been perfectly crafted. I had a negative strained relationship with my parents growing up, and it was exactly what I needed to be able to accomplish what I want and need to in my life. I had also been given knowledge in certain areas from one of my parents that I had not comprehended how valuable it was. Good things, bad things, I guess that’s the human brain labeling .. it didn’t matter. I felt this intense peace and acceptance with my past, and not only that but a deep deep gratitude for every gift and challenge throughout it.

The best way I can explain this surprise is like if you were to come back home to your shitty small moldy house like you do every day and randomly realize that everything you’ve ever searched and longed for has been inside the entire time— all of your hopes and dreams, love you’ve searched for, the final piece to whole. The house that you've complained about living in your entire life, you’ve always made plans to move out of, the one you feel ashamed of when you visit others beautiful and seemingly perfect homes. The house you wished would magically burn down so you could get the insurance money for a new one, this was the house that has had the key to everything you desire in it the entire time after all— it’s protected you, forced you to learn how to fix up certain areas, the answer has been there the entire time and you’re metaphorically sitting on a gold mine. It looks exactly the same but you have a completely different perspective on it.

There was also a point of time where I was just asking a lot of questions, trying to figure out the universe and myself. They loved to answer me!

Then I got up off the couch, which I had moved myself to after getting “cleaned out”, but as I did this I saw a giant sphere about the size of me coming towards me steadily. It was made up of gold rings and spheres moving in every direction possible. Even directions that I can’t see. There were eyes all over each ring and it was on fire. It was honestly very terrifying to see especially since I was coming towards me. All I could do is stand there and as it moved through me I understood that I was divinely protected. That was what I was trying to convey to me. I don’t mean physically, and I also don’t know if this just applies to every person on the planet automatically, but it felt very important that I know that I am infinitely protected. I felt very close to my goals that I had actually had for years of my life that I have been scared to act on, and I felt very sure that my life has purpose, and that it’s a gift.

I later learned the being I saw was an Ophanim, supposedly the being Ezekiel saw in the Bible. I have never seen or heard of one, despite growing up Christian and reading the Bible. It was so bizarre to google fire eye wheel entity and see an exact picture of what I had seen.

After this, I went and listened to music with them for pretty much the rest of the experience in my closet. They showed me that sound is conscious and sound wants to be explored and played with, I’m a musician so that was really interesting to see. I saw that we are creators, like mini gods and how we are able to manipulate matter sound, matter, light all sorts of things but we never acknowledge how great this power is. Anyway, I love you all and I’m so grateful I’ve had this amazing experience. I don’t know why I am able to have it it almost feels like a cheat code. I wish I could give it to everybody!

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 119168
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Jan 18, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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