DOSE: T+ 0:00	8.0 g	oral	Mimosa tenuiflora	(tea)
T+ 0:00	3.0 g	oral	Syrian Rue	(tea)
T+ 2:00	16 g	oral	Mimosa tenuiflora	(tea)
T+ 2:00	3.0 g	oral	Syrian Rue	(tea)

Ive just started coming down from the most profound hallocenegenic (sorry about the spelling but it doesnt really matter) experience of my life to date. I started of the day pissed off and still slightly rattling from heroine and crack withdrawal, I wasent even planning on taking the brew for at least a couple of weeks until i had got my head straight and over my cravings for smack and crack cause i had been building up to it over a month until i went through to a mates and smoked at least a half quarter of smack and fuck knows how many rocks of crack, needlees to say it messed up my state of mind.

So anyway i went to the shop and bought five beers with a mate of mine who was severly contemplating taking ayahuasca with me at some point, so i think the idea started from there, so he left at about half five with me walking down to the shop with him on his way so i could buy more beer [five]. When i returned home i thought id go for it and take a brew, so i brewed up 8 gram of root bark and 3 gram of rue and drank it, sort of being that i spewed up after the first couple of sips i think because of the beer , so i managed to drink the rest without spewing and i went for a walk.

Half an hour later i spewed up the rest, but i was still buzzing from head to toe and feeling like id taken a low dose of mushrooms,so i went back home dissapointed (famous last words eh!) but my pupils were heavily dilated and i was buzzing literaly, so i made another brew containing 16 gram of mimosa and another 3 gram of rue hoping to get the full experience [famous last words again eh!] and fuck me did i get it.

After i had drank it it was like 10 minutes before i felt sick again but i kept it in this time, and it wasent long before i started tripping and the familier feeling of got to get the fuck out of here came on which i often get on phsychedelics when in doors,but this was different and definately heavier than any experience id ever had the way it was coming on so strong and fast, mostly just mentally at first with crazy visual distortions second.

So i took my remaining can of beer and went to the bit of countryside 100 metres down the road and over a wall, and i must of laid down because i dont where the fuck i was for at least an hour but i must of been starting to come down because i started having realisations of myself an ego and being stuck in a sort of loop of thoughts and in this loop there was awlways the point of my rational thought which would sort repeat on itself when i tried to think about and made me think i had gone insane and was stuck there which was heavy to say the least,i know i was sick a couple of times because i just was but i didnt know whether i was seeing myself being sick in the past, present or future.

At times i was reminded of 'no one knows where you are, how near or how far' and among other thoughts of dont do it dav[my mate who was contemplating] Id think about suicide as a sort of oh well option but that thought would just get smeered across my universe in a menacing repeating fashion acompionied with a repeating sound byte and me falling in to the same loop over and over again and coming back to my insane repeating consioucness and spewing over my arm which did happen cause my jumpers a mess!

I onestly believe that if i had commited suicide i would have stayed there forever,my thinking at the of suicide as an option as i said got smeered over reality to the point where suicide was like what the fuck it wont change a thing your stuck and insane then fall spew and repeat.

Eventually i made my way to mine and started thinking clearly again which was funny because i was tripping so much it felt like and was as visual as 2000 shrooms[liberty caps]the difference was i was thinking clearly and rationaly where as usually id be confused and making no sense to anyone on that amount of shrooms because it paled in comparison whith the experience id just been through,so anyway ive got a lot to think about, ive got cuts all over my arms and hands, grass in my hair sick all over my jumper and a euphoric state of mind,oh I and as for cravings for smack and crack,what cravings! Ive got to much to think about.

All in all a positive and humbling experience, Its good to be back ! take it easy.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 23033
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 5, 2008	Views: 1,770
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