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Forever Changed
Syrian Rue & Mushrooms - P. cubensis
by Necronomicon
Citation:   Necronomicon. "Forever Changed: An Experience with Syrian Rue & Mushrooms - P. cubensis (exp27407)". Erowid.org. Aug 25, 2005. erowid.org/exp/27407

3.0 g oral Syrian Rue (ground / crushed)
  7.0 g oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis  


I used to be a rationalists, seeing the world only for the physical. I thought religion was only a crutch, and for those who could not handle life all by themselves. Concepts such as reincarnation seemed completely rediculous. I wondered why people couldn't accept death for what I thought it was, the end...then I accidentaly stumbled upon a teacher who harshly showed my all my faults in logic. It came in the form of Psilocybe Cubensis.

I had what looked like a small amount of Cubensis, some fresh, some dried. I did not weigh them, I figured I was ready for it. I had eaten 3g of syrian rue seeds in capsules 30 minutes earlier. I chewed and swallowed the mushrooms, now an amount I guess to be equivelant to 7g dry. My g/f was the sitter in case anything would go wrong.

It started coming on pretty strong. My room looked twice as large. I could perceive so many more colors and the contrast between them was so beautiful. My room looked as if it was designed by hollywood. I told my g/f that these were amazing and I wish I could never come down. I got my wish, I just kept on going up and up and up. The television started to get overwhelming so I shut it off. The visuals on the textured walls were amazing, I was seeing goblins and ghouls fighting in my ceiling. It kept on getting stronger and stronger. The light started to be too much. I shut it off and lay down on my bed. Voices were echoing through my head, hundreds of them. It was getting incredibly overwhelming. Then I have a blank in my memory.

My life flashed before my eyes. Every single memory I stored was displayed to me. My whole life was repeated in what seemed like a second. After that I find myself thinking soberly wondering where I was. I was looking at the earth from outer space. I couldn't remember that I had taken mushrooms, but I got the notion that I must have died, but could not think of why. I looked down on the earth, and it started spinning faster. Figures of history such as Hitler and Napoleon rose and faded away. Figures I did not recognize came up and I guessed they must be from the future. The world spun faster, and faster, until it reached the beginning and end of time. It melted into darkness. I was left in infinite.

I came back to my body, and was absolutely shocked at what just happened. I tried explaining it to my g/f.

It was hard pulling myself together after that. The Mushrooms totally destroyed my rational world completely, everything I believed in was taken away. I now realized that there was much more than just the physical world, more than I could ever imagine. My materialism instantly vanished, I had no desire for anything.

What I experienced that night was a classic Near Death Experience. The only difference was that I never got Near Death. All the after affects of my experience were nearly identical to those who actually almost died. I am infinitely thankful to these sacred mushrooms for forcing me to realize my ignorance. Use them wisely.

Exp Year: 2003ExpID: 27407
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Aug 25, 2005Views: 5,371
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