Mushrooms - P. semilanceata
Citation: Ed Wood. "Insanity and Panic: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. semilanceata (exp37576)". Erowid.org. Jan 17, 2020. erowid.org/exp/37576
I had started my first year of college and did not know anyone very well. I had some acquaintances that I would smoke cigarettes with but we never really hung out more than that. One day they were talking about doing mushrooms and I had told them that I was interested in trying them, which I was for many years, and they told me I was in luck. They had recently gotten ahold of some liberty caps and invited me to go along with them to trip in the woods. I tagged along with them deep into a forest that was miles from any form of civilization. On the way there we were pulled over by a cop because the car swerved and he thought we were drinking. We got away clean but this encounter made me extremely nervous.
We arrived at our destination and we all ate our mushrooms, followed by large amounts of orange juice. I had high levels of anxiety before they kicked in because I wasn't sure what the effects were going to feel like, however once I started feeling the effects coming on, I couldn't keep a smile off of my face. I giggled nonstop. We built a fire and watched the flames which looked gorgeous and graceful. I decided to gather some more wood, so I went on a little walk and watched the trees as they made wavy formations, and would expand as if breathing. In the crevaces of the bark, it seemed to emit a greenish-blue light. I came back and realized I brought no wood back with me. This made me laugh a great deal.
We continued small walks for about a half an hour longer which seemed like hours. This was when I noticed that one of the girls that was with us was crying and was extremely distraught. I asked her what was wrong and she said that the human body was gross and full of disease. I recoiled at this statement and felt uneasy. She told us that she was on her period and continued to say that the body was disgusting. I made a point to avoid her because I felt so uncomfortable, which caused my trip to turn to panic. I started walking away where I found one of the people I was with on his hands and knees. He was violently vomiting. My panic went through the ceiling. I called out to the rest of our group saying that he was sick. All of them said that they couldn't handle watching someone puke while they were tripping and left me to deal with it. I knelt down by him and asked him whats wrong. He replied by saying he was going to die. Since I didn't know much about mushrooms at the time, I thought he really was going to die unless we did something. I went into the car that we managed to drive deep into the woods and found a water bottle for him. After a while he calmed down. By this time it was starting to get very cold (it was late fall) so we all got into the car and turned the heat on.
I came to the conclusion that I was responsible for everyone's comfort so I made sure I had water at hand in case anyone needed it. Soon enough all the water was gone, I exclaimed that my resources were diminished. Everyone got extremely thirsty. Everyone was shouting commands to turn the car on or off, change the heat levels, or turn the music on or off. I was overwhelmed with all of this going on so I climbed into the trunk of the car to be away from everyone else. They continued to argue with eachother nonstop. It was then I realized that the one that had puked was repeating the same phrase over and over again ('Just get in the car, it'll be fine!'). This went on for a half an hour which made me think I was going to go insane. Finally he stopped talking and moving. He was in a state of catatonic silence, and he was the only one who knew where we were. Panic climaxed at this point, everyone was convinced that this kid was about to die. We stepped out for a cigarette to calm down and assess the situation. I looked at the people I was with and saw that their faces were twisting and stretching. I asked myself why this was happening, then I remembered I had eaten some mushrooms. I started to calm down and realized that everyone was going to be fine and they just needed to ride out the trip. Two hours later our motionless friend started moving and eased his way back into reality. Soon enough he started talking saying that he thought he was dead and in hell. Once he came down to a comfortable level, he drove us out of there and we ventured home.
I don't regret doing mushrooms that night. It taught me how to control myself and others if a trip gets overwhelming. It also taught me to be well prepared for a trip and to not just go into the woods unprepared. Also, I found out to have a good understanding of what I am taking, had I known more about mushrooms, I would have known that we were not in any real danger. I also learned I should be with people I am comfortable with, and that I know very well. I've done mushrooms since then and they've all been terrific experiences simply because I was more knowledgeable and comfortable with the setting.
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