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Never More Scared
Mushrooms
by Zing
Citation:   Zing. "Never More Scared: An Experience with Mushrooms (exp37914)". Erowid.org. Mar 10, 2018. erowid.org/exp/37914

 
DOSE:
1.75 g oral Mushrooms (dried)

BODY WEIGHT: 145 lb


I had never done mushrooms before. I had smoked weed and drank alcohol and always have had a deep intrest in trying acid. I thought mushrooms were a good compromise after seeing some of the horrible trips people experienced from acid.

I took the shrooms with some water after work at about 1030 at night. I was aware it caused insomnia but I didnt think it was as intense as it ended up being. I chatted with some friends online while I waited for them to kick in, and as expected, they started to around 1130.

I laid down on my bed with the lights off and Ween playing full blast on my headphones. I really enjoyed the visual activity I was experiencing. It was fun to turn the lights on and see the difference in the stucco ceiling I have. Rainbows in the shape of stars shot around the ceiling and the colors in the room were SO intense that I was drawn into their power. Time seemed to stay still and all of the songs fused together. I was having such a good time watch the after image of the light bulb when I shut off the light.

It was about 230 in the morning that the anxiety began. I got really tense and nervious. I really wanted to fall asleep, but everytime I shut my eyes, I would just have different images flying around in my head. I turned off the music and concentrated on coming down from the trip. When Im stoned and feel like coming down it is so easy, but with the shrooms it was a different story. Trying to come down made time pass so much slower and I felt like I was in a time warp. This was in a time when I was already slightly depressed and All of the everyday anxieties I had came into mind and made me feel so mad.

At about 330 in the morning, I got up from my bed, and walked around. I went into the bathroom to spray my face with cold water but I was so captivated by the mirror that I had to leave. I went back into my room, and laid down on the floor. I thought for some odd reason this would help me come down. All that happened though, was that I saw the box cutters I used for work. I looked at them and contemplated suicide. I even remember thinking that it was more effective to cut along the arm rather than across. I was so close to doing something really dumb when I realized what I was doing. It was not worth it to take my life because of some stupid feeling I had when I was in a mind altered state to begin with. I laid back down on my bed and eventually fell asleep.

I was truely more scared that night than I ever have been. I realize that I almost took my life. Fortunately all of the times I have done shrooms since then have been with many friends around, and when I felt much safer. I am still aprehensive to take acid because I have heard of people doing unbeleivable things which have either killed them or someone else, or close to it.

Exp Year: 2003ExpID: 37914
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Mar 10, 2018Views: 701
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