DOSE:	3.5 g	oral	Mushrooms	(edible / food)
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

110 lb

It was approximately 11:30pm when I decided to ingest a chocolate containing about 1/8 of finely ground psilocybe mushrooms. I, being a very experienced mushroom user, was not at all uncomfortable with the fact that I would be tripping alone this evening. I changed into some pj's and settled in my bed to watch some adult swim and smoke a bowl. In no time the mushrooms began to take effect. I stared at the television with wonder and amazement. I was overwhelmed by the images flashing before my eyes, each one more fantastic than the last. The colors all began to blend together and appeared brighter than the sun. I had to close my eyes as I could no longer distinguish anything that was on the tv. I had the very odd feeling that I was being watched or that something was in the room with me. At first I began to get frightened, but I quickly calmed myself and reminded myself that I was just being silly.

It was at this point that I began to enter a sort of dream-like trance. I wasn't asleep as I was still aware of my body and thinking consciously. During this time I had a series of dreams or visions if you will, all of them containing two beings which I was able to interact with as if they were real people. Meaning, although they only appeared in the dreams, when they spoke it sounded as if they were in the same room as me. I believe I may have experienced what is known as Logos. The following is what I experienced as written right after I came out of my dream/trance. Nothing has been edited except corrected spelling mistakes and author's notes for clarification purposes.

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It's approximately 3:10am EST and I have just endured one of many experiences on psilocybe mushrooms ('shrooms). Said mushrooms were ingested via a mushroom chocolate containing about 1/8.

This particular experience being the most profound to date the mushrooms actually 'spoke' to me. The ancients as they referred to themselves as revealed to me many things. Two of these 'visions', which will be discussed later, were past memories the rest being nothing that came of my consciousness.

The ancients can take on any form they wish and take on any voice as well. (author's note: I'm assuming by 'voice' I mean language) Their presence is made known by ringing or buzzing in the ears and colors too bright so eyes must be closed. I could only see and hear them in my mind though it was if they were with me in the room.

The two entities first appeared as two ditzy valley girls but revealed they could take on any form they wished and demonstrated.

The first of the two previously mentioned 'visions' was a past life recognition in which I was murdered by a man (husband?) that looked much like the Charles Dickens character Scrooge. Mid-length button waist-coat and a silk top hat. [there is a side note that reads: 1800's or early 1900's dress] He struck 'me' with a fireplace poker and stabbed me with it about 5 times. Before showing me the 'vision' they (ancients) took on his form and I was filled with terror, though I had never seen the man before.

The second 'vision' was a repressed memory of this life in which a friend of my parents had molested me on several occasions. (author's note: Before this point the beings began whispering to each other and appeared that they were debating whether or not to reveal the 'vision' at hand. One being then asked 'are you sure you're ready for this one' in which I replied 'yes') I never came forward w/ these accusations. The ancients then showed me that because I never told on him I led him to molest 4 other children and possibly my sister. They then told me I had to cry for those other kids and cry the tears I never could for myself.

Between these two 'visions' I was able to ask a series of questions. I asked them if they were God and they replied 'no, but many believe they are' I then asked them if they weren't God then what was. They then replied that 'God is overrated, not necessarily overrated but not what people think God is. God is just the energy that gives life into everything'. They showed me what heaven looked like and they described it to me as 'The soul's waiting room till it can depart to the next life'. I asked them the meaning of life and they laughed at me and said 'That's for you to find out'.

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Upon awakening tears were streaming down my cheeks. I cried for a solid 45 minutes before I could pull myself together to (very shakily) write out my report in an old notebook I happened to find. As bad as it sounds I don't consider what I experienced a bad trip. In fact, I would classify it as a glowing experience since this is exactly the kind of introspective trip I had been trying to achieve. Though it was quite intense it's quite possibly the best trip I have ever had.

November 13th 2005

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 51033
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Oct 18, 2017	Views: 2,018
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