Citation: unborn. "Baptism by Fire: An Experience with Mushrooms & Cannabis (exp66352)". Erowid.org. Jun 24, 2021. erowid.org/exp/66352
Ok this was one of my first few psychedelic experiences, I think my third time using mushrooms. After I received my eigth I quickly gobbled into it. I ate the whole thing, then went home. I was with a friend, and I was sitting and smoking with him. Then I felt an incredible rush come over me, and realized that my friend was just there to get a free buzz. I gave him some pot to just leave immediately, which he did. I proceeded to then turn off the lights in my bed room and lay down(bad idea). Its hard for me to remember and exact order of the following events but here we go:
As I layed there was rainbows of blues and purples, hues I've never seen before vibrant flowing like water on my ceiling. My mind started to wander. It first went to motherhood, and I could feel the pain of my own birth. I wanted to talk to my mother, I realized she was the same as me, I wanted to tell her I understood everything she did now. I understood she was just as worried and clueless about life as I, and I loved her for it. Then my mind shifted to the universe. I was lifted up and went back through time. I was in the tower of london, waiting the rack. I could feel the pain of all the martyrs, I could feel my joints getting pulled apart. I thought of Ann Bolyn, and all of the people who died because they refused to give in on their beliefs. I could feel the fires licking my flesh. And let me clarify, I didn't 'feel' it, it was a very REAL and INTENSE pain. Then I shifted to the present and could feel the pain all over the world.
Then my mind shifted again, and I could see a ball of perfect white light hovering above me. It was formless but I knew immediately what it was. It was Love manifest, it was the christ consciousness. I looked up, and It spoke to me. It was simple and short, 'you are the creator of your reality' and in a flash the light went into me, then the trip was basically over.
I layed there catatonic, with my arms curled up like someone with palsy, unable to move. I was looking at my pipe, wanting desperately to do something i associated with sanity. I couldn't move my arms to pack it, i was stuck. That lasted a while, then I went to relieve myself. I just remember myself sitting on the toliet going 'what the fuck just happened'. I had no clue shrooms could do that, especially on only an eighth.
After It was over I decided I was Ok with dying right then, that what I was sent here for was finished. Not a suicidal thought, just a 'i had done everything'. That quickly subsided in a few days. I would count that as one of my most profound experiences, drug or not, and I think it has a lot to do with who I am today.
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