DOSE:	40 mg	oral	Pharms - Citalopram	(daily)
	repeated	oral	Mushrooms	(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

I've been taking antidepressants for about 6 months now, and have settled on citalopram as my brand of choice. I'm currently taking 40 mg a day. This is not for depression specifically, but for social anxiety and social phobia, which I've had for over ten years now (I'm twenty years old).

In the past I've used all sorts of drugs recreationally... LSD, shrooms, coke, DMT, salvia, peyote, marijuana... you get the point. All of these have either increased my social anxiety or turned me into a very disturbed individual for weeks or months at a time after use.

I recently tried shrooms while on an SSRI for the first time. I had been warned that the psylocibe might not be as effective, but hell, I was bored and thought it was worth a shot anyway.

My friend Jenna and I bought 2 eighths and decided to use them all in a french-press coffee maker so we could have some tea but not have loose shroom pieces getting all over the place. I can't really estimate how much I ingested. I drank at least 6 cups over a span of about 3 hours (we replenished the water as needed).

This was Jenna's first time taking mushrooms, and she experienced mild visual hallucinations... tracers, rainbows, that sort of thing.

Normally when I trip it's in a bizarre schizophrenic kind of way. For example, I once spent seven hours convulsing and crying on my bed while being seduced by Satan. That's another story, though.

Anyway, I did hallucinate this time, but in a very light way. I could alter my surroundings visually a bit if I wanted to. If I looked in the mirror I could distort my features a bit, and everything in the apartment seemed to be twice its size. So perhaps the SSRI did alter my experience. I wouldn't consider this a negative, however. Although I didn't see little gnomes sliding out of the ceiling on rainbows, I did have a life-changing experience. My social anxiety disappeared completely. Not in the beer-goggles kind of way, where one just throws all caution to the wind and acts like a fool. I was almost completely coherent; I just didn't feel the need to apologize for existing or to ensure that everyone was interested in what I was saying or doing. I didn't really care whether the other people present (Jenna and I decided to invite a bunch of friends over to keep us company) were interested in me, or wanted to be around me. I realized that if people don't want to talk to me or be around me then they won't. But either way I don't care what people think.

The great part was, I didn't even have to concentrate on these ideas to realize them. Every now and then I might have thought, 'hey, they really do like me' or something like that, but it wasn't something I was really concerned with. I was at ease because everything became more real to me. Ultimately, I felt the most relaxed (socially and mentally) I have ever felt in my life.

So, for me, this raises the question not of how SSRIs affect the potency of mushrooms, but whether or not the interaction might produce a positive (healthful) experience.

This could be completely subjective, though. I'm eager to try this combination again.

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 67759
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Mar 4, 2021	Views: 659
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