Mushrooms - P. cubensis
Citation: alternativebuddah. "Getting Medicinal Benefits: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis (exp84623)". Erowid.org. Sep 19, 2019. erowid.org/exp/84623
Mushrooms to Treat Depression and Similar
I used to have a normal life. Working 9 to 5 in a stressful environment. After 10 years or so of this I went through an incredibly difficult situation. I won't elaborate on the specifics of the situation, but in general my wife left me, I lost my job and became homeless (I have no the family to rely on), amongst other things. I did manage to get some help from friends. Generally I became so stressed that I suffered from 'burn out' as described by my doctor. He said it was very similar to Post Traumatic stress syndrome. I suffered chronic insomnia (sleeping maybe 3-4 hours a night every night), major depression and suicidal thoughts amongst other things. As a result of long lasting severe stress combined from years in my difficult job and what I had gone through it left me mentally weakened. My mind was like a mist or fog. Do understand, depression, at least as I had it is not just general sadness, it is a chemical imbalance that leaves you unable to even think clearly. I even notice it when I drive, my mental capacities for concentration are very much reduced. I cannot concentrate for long, my mind often goes blank. I even used to have difficulty remembering my name or birth date on the worst occasions! Before this situation I used to be mentally much sharper. So this is what I used to suffer from.
I got little help from my doctors and was not taking medicines. After a few months of researching (in the middle of the night due to insomnia) I saw hints that Magic Mushrooms may have some benefits. So I decided to get some and try it, well what could be worse than the situation I was in?
Two months later I had some mushrooms. I decided to try one dose of 1 gram (all dried) in December 2009. It was mildly pleasant with some strong paranoia. After six or so hours I returned to normal and was feeling restful. I didn't notice too much difference at that time than before. I just felt normal. A few weeks later I had more mushrooms, about 3 grams in total dried.
Around this time I noticed that since I had taken the first lot of mushrooms I didn't feel the depression (the deep down miserable feeling) anymore, that seemed to have mostly evaporated, leaving me feeling normal. Normal is just that, normal, that is why I didn't notice it. I had forgotten about feeling miserable, but my other symptoms mostly remained.
I had forgotten about feeling miserable, but my other symptoms mostly remained.
I had the thought of using mushrooms as a medicine (one or twice a day like a tablet from the doctors) I realised I wouldn't feel the 'high' because your body is supposed to build resistance to it, but that could be a benefit if you where taking it medicinally.
So on a Sunday (a few weeks after my first dose) I took another gram with similar results to the first experience (I mostly lay in bed listening to beautiful music on both occasions). I felt not much change but better (and I felt the high). The next day I took another gram, half in the morning and half at midday. I noticed this time I was not so high, only slightly, enough to go about my daily activities without paranoia. However I did 'feel' different. I was full of energy, mental energy too. I was actually less paranoid than I was in my ordinary life. I was not hesitant at all. I got so much done that day, it was like when I was younger. That night though I did notice it was detrimental to my attempt to sleep, its stimulating effects did not help my insomnia.
The next day (Tuesday) I decided to take the remaining gram in the morning. Again no high but I was full of energy and got a lot done. It reminds of the the supposed effects Ritalin has on people. It is a mental stimulant when taken daily. The problem again was that my sleep suffered so after this I stopped.
Well I felt overall that my symptoms subsided somewhat and that the mushrooms did help a bit. It was about a month later after I had last taken the mushrooms that I noticed a sudden improvement overall.
It was about a month later after I had last taken the mushrooms that I noticed a sudden improvement overall.
Suddenly my symptoms diminished to about 10 to 20% of what they used to be. Now I even sleep almost like normal, my thinking, mood and life is vastly improved! I was even inspired to start a new business (from inspiration from mushrooms? I don't know) All I can say is that in the few months from taking the mushrooms medicinally (and not again after that) my life has turned from a living hell to a life with possibility. My life has turned around.
Can you imagine a world where you grew your own Prozac or Ritalin in your garden? With less side effects than the 'real' medicines? Well I don't imagine that the big pharma companies like that idea. But if I take magic mushrooms daily I won't be getting high, even if prescribed by doctors. If I am not getting or feeling high and I am getting medicinal benefits then perhaps it is not so bad?
Taking mushrooms over a 3 to 4 day period, I only felt 'high' one day, the rest were curative.
Since this little experiment I came again under heavy stress recently. I had to move home on a moments notice and had no funds, due to my new business, which is going very well now. Again my symptoms have returned, but only about 50% of what they used to be. This time, again after researching, I have decided I will try the Peyote cactus (mescaline) medicinally. I want to see if this also has positive effects without the high when taking repeated daily doses.
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