Citation: Fish. "A Definite Ego and Self-Esteem Boost: An Experience with Mushrooms, Alprazolam & Sertraline (exp88874)". Erowid.org. Mar 5, 2021. erowid.org/exp/88874
I have been taking generic Sertraline HCl for 2 months (100mg nightly dose) for body dysmorphic disorder, generalized anxiety, and depression.
Took .5mg of Alprazolam at 5pm.
Took an 8th of dried mushrooms at 545.
Boarded a train at 645, the effects were just taking hold.
Took another .5mg of Alprazolam around 615.
Trip lasted about 4 hours. I had heard that zoloft can reduce the effects of hallucinogens, however I consider this the most positive trip I have ever had. I saw many visuals: mainly patterns in the floor and my clothes, plugged in my ipod and listened to electronic music for all 4 hours (Modeselektor, James Zabiela, Deadmau5, Wolfgang Gartner, etc) while staring at my reflection in the window. My face was melting, swirling, distorting, and flashing in and out of focus as the train was speeding along the tracks at night.
Body high was very similar to the one I experienced with MDMA. I felt very warm, the chair I was in and my clothes were very comfortable, and my tactile sensations were positively enhanced.
I had no anxiety whatsoever. It was pure bliss. There were also no negative thoughts. I could only think about how attractive of a person I was, how creative and intelligent I am, and how cool I was, that I was the man I truly wanted to be in life, and how it was so strange and absurd it was for me to have been depressed, introverted and terrible that I had low self esteem. These feelings may be a result of the zoloft or alprazolam, I am not sure, but it was a definite ego and self-esteem boost for me (which is probably good for my depression and body image issues).
The body high and visuals I had were similar to my two previous mushroom trips I had, but the mind high was completely different. I have never experienced such an ego-boosting trip (usually it is the opposite). I am not sure of the implications of this, perhaps the psychiatric medicines are truly helping!
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