Mushrooms - P. cubensis
Citation: ESP fan. "Meeting God: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis (exp89487)". Erowid.org. Sep 22, 2017. erowid.org/exp/89487
I`ve been wanting to report this experience for quite some time but got to it only now, almost 2 years later. My whole trip was so life changing that I keep on replaying it on daily basis. But let's start at the beginning.
I was raised an atheist, with pretty strong disrespect to organized religion. This attitude was quite common in communist Czechoslovakia. Prior to this experience I'd had smoked cannabis (at 26 my first time), Salvia Divinorum, ate smaller doses of shrooms- 2-3 grams, and done some MDMA. I had been planning this big trip for several months, thinking I would experience more acid-like trip with higher dose.
In the morning right after I woke up I ate 10 grams of p. cubensis with one slice of toasted bread, pastrami and cheese, washed it with a glass of orange juice. It was late April and the weather was perfect. My wife drove us to the forest. We were walking across the woods, smoking cannabis.
The birds were singing louder, the forest started to grow greener, tree trunks were getting fluid quality. This was about an hour into the trip. My legs were getting heavier, my whole body was just becoming weak. I told my wife I needed to rest and few minutes later we came to a meadow. I laid down on a big fallen tree and started to relax, my eyes fixed on the spotless blue sky. My body was becoming weightless, I couldn't feel it anymore. So I tried to move my leg and yes, I could move it. So I told myself: Everything is perfectly ok and I'm gonna let go no matter what's happening.
So I gazed at the sky again, watching hexagonal shapes being born from nothing everywhere. These had white edges, were connecting one to another and swirling in unity at low pace. I could see white 'channels' (I don't know what else to call these) everywhere I looked, connecting earth to the sky. This was very amazing to watch and I fixed my stare at clear sky again as to refocus my eyes. After several seconds hexagonal started to appear again and I was just staring at it.
Suddenly, something happened. There was a channel connecting my head to this hexagonal. I felt kind of lifted or sucked up toward the sky immediately. I could feel me going up but at the same time I saw a bright light coming down towards me. The distance between us stopped closing. I was just watching this beautiful bright light, brighter than 1000 suns yet not blinding. Endless wisdom, love, power. Words can't describe sensations I was experiencing. I, or better my ego wanted to ask: are you God? but as soon as I started to form the question in my head I was hit with an answer: yes. God just told me telepathically. Everything was so clear at this moment. The whole universe made sense and was easy to understand.
I don't know how long I was like this, maybe few seconds, maybe half an hour. Time stopped, or better, became meaningless. Suddenly, the vibrating light (I remember white, yellow, orange and red color, white and yellow being in the center, then orange, then red) closed the distance between us and came down to me, right into my face. This closeness lasted considerably shorter. Then, the light took off, I could see it going back up through the channel and disappear. At the very moment it did I came back to my senses and realized I was back on the tree trunk staring at the sky, my neck, shirt and face wet from tears. I started to cry repeating to my wife: it's so fucking beautiful, you can't have a clue. It's so fucking beautiful...
We smoked some cannabis and slowly started to walk back to the car. The forest was still vivid, colorful, alive. But it wasn't impressing me anymore, NOTHING compares to God. I came all the way down at about 7pm, about 10 hours later.
Needless to say I am changed person now. I took deep interest in meditation, metaphysics, psychic powers. I am believer now but organized religion just looks even more ridiculous than before.
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