DOSE: T+ 0:00	10 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. atlantis	(sclerotia)
T+ 0:30	5 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. atlantis	(sclerotia)

BODY WEIGHT:

72 kg

The last two times my boyfriend and I used mushrooms, it wasn't a big success. Even though we used passionflower, cannabis and herbal ecstasy to make the effect stronger, it didn't gave us the intense trip for which we were looking. So this time we decided to eat a few more truffles (psilocybe atlantis) to see if more would happen. We bought it at this online store since truffles are legal here in the Netherlands.

We decided to start with ten grams each because on the cover it said this kind of truffle would be intense and was only for experienced users (and it was only my third time). I have only done drugs a few times and all in the last two months. I have never tried other hallucinogens other than mushrooms. My boyfriend, on the other hand, is very experienced, so from his stories I knew a little of what to expect. When we started we were both feeling relaxed and happy, and there weren't any things that we were stressing about. We made sure we had the next day off so we had all the time to enjoy the trip. We didn't take any other substances than mushrooms this time.

9PM
Firstly, we waited ten minutes so that the truffles would soak in our tea water. Then we drank it and ate the mushrooms. As soon as I ate the last truffle, I needed to lie down because I felt very dizzy, as if I were drunk. My body started tingling all over and I was feeling very relaxed. I needed to pee about every ten minutes, so I knew it was working (since that's always happening to me when I use mushrooms). After about thirty minutes I decided this wasn't going to be intense enough, so I took another five grams. It was very difficult for me to do that, since the drug was definitely working; I was very distracted and I had a hard time focusing on things. I was also giggling about everything. I didn't know why, but everything seemed funny. It took me about twenty minutes to finally eat and drink the last truffle. My boyfriend wanted to put on some different music, but he had a difficult time doing so because the screen was blurry and moving. He was definitely getting visual hallucinations. That didn't happen to me, but I wasn't able to pick music either because I couldn't focus on the thought of which kind of music I wanted to hear. There were just so many interesting things in my environment! Though I didn't know why, everything looked the same, but somehow everything seemed interesting. I still had to go to the toilet every ten minutes and though the toilet is only a few steps away, it felt like a long trip, since I really had to concentrate on what I was doing and not be distracted.

10:15 PM
My boyfriend made a joke. I don't remember what he said, but I do remember I found it extremely funny and I started laughing and just couldn't stop! This went on for what seemed about ten minutes. I had never heard myself laugh this loud and for such a long time. When it stopped I was relieved because I was finally able to take a good breath, but then I looked at my glass filled with ice tea and it just looked so damned funny that I burst out laughing again. It went on and on this way, even though I was just lying there and nothing happened that would normally be funny. My boyfriend stood up and said it would be fun if I followed him by walking behind him. I did this for two steps and then I had to stop and lean against the couch because my loudest laughter had begun and went on for what seemed like forever. After that I told him not to do anything funny anymore, because it was a bit frightening that I was laughing so loud that I was getting a bit out of breath.

I decided to close my eyes to see if I would get closed-eyed hallucinations, and there they were! Some colours and patterns were dancing around and, of course, this was very funny to me as well and so the never-ending laughter continued. I had a feeling the visuals were showing off; it felt like they (the visuals) wanted me to laugh very loud and that's why they were trying to impress me. I tried to tell my boyfriend what was so funny but I couldn't because every time I tried, something else happened that was also hilarious and so I had about a hundred things to tell him but new things kept adding up. I decided not to try anymore and that I would tell him about my adventures afterwards. But everything happened so fast that now I only remember about a quarter of the things that were funny. My boyfriend was amused by me laughing the entire time, but he didn't laugh much. Instead he was having open-eyed hallucinations and I remember thinking I was jealous because I have never had hallucinations when my eyes were open, but I was in such a happy state that it didn't really matter to me anymore. I kept thinking I didn't see anything, only the light of the red wall went on and off and sometimes suddenly became much brighter or darker. I registered that but didn't think about it; it just happened and I was easily distracted by other thoughts. It was only afterwards that I realized that this wasn't a light going on and off; it was the colour of the paint that was changing.

11:30 PM
When I went to the toilet again, it finally became clear to me that things were changing. At first I had a hard time walking to the toilet, because my legs wanted to move in a different direction then where I wanted them to go. It was also hard for me to keep my balance and not fall over. As I reached the toilet, I registered that the small room was changing. Suddenly the light was much brighter and the color of the wall became slightly different. Then the light went dark. It was just very, very funny... like everything was. When I was finally finished (unzipping my jeans already took me what felt like five minutes, so you can guess how long it was taking to take all the steps!) I stepped into the dark hall on my way to the living room. That's when the peak came and my environment was changing drastically. I was on this plateau for about an hour, though I'm not sure exactly how long because the construct of 'time' wasn't the same anymore.

I wanted to move forward but instead my legs were walking backwards. It made me knock against something behind me, but of course that was also funny. Our door has a peephole and a little bit of light from the gallery was coming through it, while the rest of the hall was dark. I was fascinated by that peephole, and it attracted me. So I went closer and suddenly the hall became much darker and the peephole became much brighter. The entire atmosphere changed. Every time I looked at it, the atmosphere was getting darker and the peephole seemed a very dangerous place to go to, yet fascinating and it was really attracting me. I stared for a while but was scared to get closer. And when I did try to come closer, my legs moved in the wrong direction once more. My boyfriend stood behind me and that way I was able to walk forward. I went to the dark room where the washing machine stood and it was so beautiful. It was dark but it looked somehow different; the air was much more beautiful and very pure, and the washing machine seemed so... peaceful. But then the energy became darker again, so I decided to go to the living room and turn off the lights because the darkness was so beautiful.

As soon as most of the lights were off I started to feel this 'bad' energy again, so I turned the lights on again. I was still giggling every second but not as loud and unstoppable as before, because I was also feeling a bit frightened due to the strange energy in the room. Then so much happened that I couldn't keep track of it anymore. For example, I could stare at the table and everything around it would change. It felt as if the table was sucking me up, almost as though I was forced to look at it. Then it became scary and I was able to look away, but when I looked away, something else forced me to look at them. For an hour I had very mixed feelings; I was fascinated by everything that was happening and it was still extremely funny, but it was also a bit scary. I looked at my boyfriend and his eyes and smile looked very different. He looked like some sort of friendly psycho clown piranha. When my boyfriend is angry, he can look at you in a very cold way. During this trip his eyes were mostly smiling, but when they were not, I was immediately feeling frightful and extremely sad. His eyes were able to create my moods.

However, it didn't take long before I started laughing about something else. I tried to put on some music so the energy of the room wouldn't be so overwhelming, but this time I was completely unable to do this because: 1) I couldn't focus on what kind of music I wanted to hear; 2) the screen was blurry and words were moving; 3) just moving the mouse was such an incredibly funny action that I had to give up, although it was very amusing playing with it. My boyfriend picked something and the energy in the room felt better immediately. It's funny how every little action takes so much effort and has such an impact. For example, I tried to pour some ice tea into my glass, and just picking up the bottle was very fascinating. Then I had to fill my glass, and it seemed so hard! When some ice tea finally filled my glass I was just laughing hysterically, not knowing why exactly.

There was this dark corner where we hadn't put the light on, and it now seemed a very fearful place. I wanted to put the light on there and tried to convince myself there was nothing there, but at the end I really didn't want to go there, so I didn't. My brave boyfriend did it for me.

Suddenly there were a few loud knocks against our ceiling, like someone was smashing a nail in our ceiling with a hammer or something. It completely freaked us out and we didn't know what it was. Of course, it was our neighbor from upstairs, but we didn't realize that. We were so freaked out because it felt like we lived in our cozy little house where we were safe, where we were alone. The evil world didn't exist anymore and suddenly an intruder was knocking against OUR ceiling! Fortunately, it went on for only about thirty seconds. It did came back a few times though, leaving us completely freaked out but only for a little while.

01:00 AM
It was still very interesting that my body didn't do what I instructed it to do. Like when I wanted to walk forward, I walked backwards. When I was lying down I wanted to move my arm forward, but it went backwards so it was behind my back. It wasn't that I couldn't control my body at all. I was able to control it when I really focused, but most of the time I just let my body do what it wanted to do because this was also fascinating in some way: seeing my body move when I'm not even instructing it to move. This went on for a while and I registered the hallucinations were becoming weaker and I wasn't laughing about everything anymore. I was just lying there and I was very aware of what was going on in my body. For instance, when my hand wanted to move, I already felt it coming for a few minutes before it actually moved. The same goes for yawning: I already felt the yawn coming from afar and I just knew I couldn't escape from it. I started to feel extremely tired and the yawns were exhausting, since they were coming from far and they were very intense, and there were a lot of yawns that I didn’t have control of. I wanted to sleep, but couldn't.

I kept on feeling like this for quite a while, I'd say for at least two hours. We listened to the album 'Blood Sugar Sex Magic' by the Red Hot Chili Peppers, an album that has a lot of personal memories for me. While listening to that album, lots of memories related to that album came up and I remembered many times that I listened to that album when I was young: how I felt, what I was doing, in what stage of life I was... I never really think much about my past, but this time the memories were so clear.

03:30 AM
Because I was so exhausted we went to bed, but I couldn't sleep, the room was twisting a bit and I was getting a few light pulses when I closed my eyes. I finally fell asleep but kept on waking up, probably because the experience made such an impression on me.

I still think it's bizarre that this complete change in perception is possible and it's been a great, fascinating experience to me. I'm not sure I'll do mushrooms again soon though, because it didn't really make me feel good. I was only laughing and excited because I had never experienced something like this before, but now that I know what it's like, I don't necessarily need to do it again.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 94650
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Nov 28, 2024	Views: Not Supported
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