Citation: N. "The 'Coming Home' Feeling: An Experience with Mushrooms & Sertraline (exp95018)". Erowid.org. Mar 5, 2021. erowid.org/exp/95018
I have taken mushrooms with zoloft on two separate occasions. There was a distinct similarity to both experiences which was unique to this combination and not typical of my usual mushroom trips. I am not prescribed zoloft and was not at the time.
I am not prescribed zoloft and was not at the time.
I had taken Zoloft a handful of times before with little effect. I was younger at the time and a lot more willing to take substances and combine them just out of curiosity.
The first time I did this combination I was home with a friend. I had taken mushrooms numerous times in the past and at similar dosages. I took both substances at the sames time. I would say that I was tripping somewhat harder than usual for this dose. While peaking I experienced a powerful “coming home” type experience. For about 30 to 45 minutes I was sobbing with joy. I had never before experienced the “coming home” feeling on mushrooms before, nor had I ever cried. The experience was powerfully emotional and cathartic.
The second time was at a festival. I again took about 2 grams of mushrooms and 100 mg of Zoloft. Again, while peaking I had another “coming home” experience. I remember saying over and over “I’m home. I’m home.” Again, there were a lot of tears.
I had not known that the “coming home” feeling was a common psychedelic experience before these two trips.
Years later when I had read reports of the “coming home” feeling I knew exactly what that meant. I felt like I had returned to a place inside myself that I had thought was lost. That I had actually never left. That was always inside me and I could always return to. A place I had been closer to as a child. A place I had known before I was born. A place where my true self dwells and maybe where god dwells as well. I felt so relieved and grateful to know that this place was there and accessible. My happiness was profound. On the Shulgin rating scale I would say these two experiences were on the +4 order.
I have not ventured to try the combination again since. I try to avoid SSRI drugs entirely. I intuitively believe they are unhealthy. I can only guess that the Zoloft blocked the reuptake of serotonin while the psilocin caused a flood of serotonin causing levels of serotonin to be even more elevated as a result. However, this is only a guess. I don’t really know.
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