The Continuum
Mushrooms
Citation: HiddenExit. "The Continuum: An Experience with Mushrooms (exp97816)". Erowid.org. Jan 14, 2021. erowid.org/exp/97816
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1 | oral | Mushrooms | (edible / food) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 210 lb |
The effects intensified exponentially as the minutes passed. 'Ah, yes, the old familiar feelings,' I thought to myself as I listened to music and doodled on a sketch pad. The feelings quickly took on a chaotic/overwhelming quality. I thought 'Maybe this was a mistake.' There were moments when I just wanted the trip to end; I just wanted to go back to my dull, confident existence, because the general feeling I had could only be described (by me) as 'unstable.' The fun of the trip was swallowed by a feeling of not being in control, of not knowing what would happen next. The trip remained difficult throughout the night, but what changed was that I realized there were lessons involved. I thought about my Mom, and about how she was aging and how she wished she could be young and vivacious again. This resulted in a long-lost feeling of love/tenderness within me...subtle, but distinct. Something I had been missing.
I can't remember a lot of the details of the trip, but I reached a couple of profound conclusions about life by the end. One was that, in some weird sense, nothing really matters. It sounds nihilistic, but at the time it seemed like a necessary realization of which I had to keep reminding myself. It seemed that every/any action, situation etc. had the same balance of upsides/downsides as anything else. Anything could be learned from, everything had some kind of benefit. My other major realization was that consciousness/reality was a neverending continuum. There is no conclusion. It just keeps going, ever-present, ever-unfolding.
I feel like a new person after that trip. I feel younger on the inside, more pure, more happy.
Exp Year: 2012 | ExpID: 97816 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 26 | |
Published: Jan 14, 2021 | Views: 519 |
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